waiting waiting waiting

Its 234am! haha, i am waiting for something to be announced! haha, hope all will go well man! haha, 不要慌 ！ 加油加油加油！两个人等终比一个人孤单的等来得好吧！

23 mins more!!!!!!

Last day of school!

Okay, today is the last day of school! haha, one semester has passed. to be exact, its study break has started! Joey, Maryanne and I decided to celebrate the end of school. Hence we decided to eat out to. Actually i was the one that came out with this idea! haha, i wanted to have good food so i managed to come up with a good reason to eat out! haha. Thankfully we went early, the cafe/restaurant is fully booked after 630! haha.

Hmm, too some pictures. shall upload them! the meal cost us 70 euros though.




Okay, the guy in blue/green t-shirt is joey! he is from hong kong but he studied in Canada for many years. At first he said he is camera shy, but in the end is wanted to take a picture with the food! haha, such a cam whore! haha.

oh, the drink which i ordered (in the wine glass) is called Irish coffee. It cost 6.50 euro and i only drank half of it -_- It's a mixture of coffee with some alcohol. Oh man, the amount of alcohol that it contains is so much that i cant even finish it! its like 95% alcohol and 5% coffee. The taste of coffee is totally being masked by the large amount of alcohol added! Maybe ken and colin can take it ba, but it certainly is too strong for me. I bet that ger will faint again should he drink it! ha. oh well, wasted 13 SGD -_-

The starter we had was seafood platter. wahaha, obviously its my idea to have it! wahaha, its damn nice, really different form fish and co kind. haha, it has raw salmon, boiled salmon, crab spincer, prawns and salad. the sauce that goes with it is really good too! yummy, it has been a long time since i last had good food! oh ya, the creamy chicken pasta rocks socks too~ oh man, i love eating pasta with standard, not those that i cooked! -_- i am starting to lose faith in my title : 'chef teo' . ha

Oh ya, my cousin gave me an english name! i think its damn zai man, too zai for me! haha. It JAYDEN. haha, she said that jayden teo sounds really good! haha. i shall use this name when i enter the training hospital next year. wheee, now people do not have to call me HON le, haha, some times i wonder why it is so difficult to just add a wei behind!

hmmm, sadly, one of my hostel mate has gone home! he is the one that always cook with me man! haiz, now i would be cooking alone. how sad, the feeling sucks man. haha, maybe i should go back to singapore too! haha, my dad will so kill me. haha. however, i think i can go back should i ask them. haha. argh, shall get rid of this lame thought and focus on my revision! haha.

LOL, something damn funny happened just now. When we were leaving, Maryanne heard this young girl telling her mum this. ' Mum , he is a guy, not a girl.' -_-, i certainly hope she is not saying about me man. sadly, i saw her staring and smiling at me for like 5 minutes. i thought she found me attractive, wth, she actually thought im a gal?! omg, i think she is refering to joey not me, i look so man, just dont sound really man thats all -_- Stop laughing!!!!! Chin, you better not be rolling on the floor man! haha.

shall take a break from work today. haha, have been watching yoga's clips. haha, he is damn cute man. He attended this cooking show, damn funny. he cant cook for nuts man. amazingly, he actually won tank with his last dish! haha, the host (insulted yoga's dish) was so shocked that he actually won. haha, yay yoga rocks! kawaii~ haha, not you chin not you.

eh anyone knows what happened to rq AGAIN? ha, why is her post so emotional again. i think she can soon sing diana degarmo 'emotional' song le man. Oh ya, and ger is back from AUSSIE land~ Co Co are u thinking what i am thinking? whahaha

CCPOFS, hope you had fun today! should not always bury yourself with so much work ya. ha, its your holiday so go out more often ba! haha. love ya lots and see you soon~ haha.

37 more days!

haha, just wanted to continue my count down~ haha.

oh man i woke up early as i thought lesson is at 10! tmd, its at 2 pm la! zzz, oh well shall go make my breakfast now~ haha. chaoz

longbei misses biong biong too! wheee, haha. see ya later~

39 more days!

holy crap, i started counting down with it was eighty plus more days! haha, i remember ken asking me this question ' isnt it slower if you count down in this manner?' ha, ken look at it now, its 39 more days! haha. damn fast man, i have nothing to say~ haha.

moments ago i read yu's blog. oh man, yu you are so outdated! haha, that drama is out so damn long ago le! haha, its damn good right? i rated the drama 4.75/5. it would have gotten a 5/5 should the girls boyfriend be more shuai! haha.

neuropathy is really scary ya. it slowly eats into a person, depriving the person if EVERYTHING. yes, everything. Basic independence is gone, people suffering from such diseases will soon be a form of hindrance to his/her friends and family. The drama highlighted the reality of the society, bring rendered useless = off you go/ alienation!

Some people are born with the genetic disposition towards certain disease such as congenital diabetes, deficiency of certain enzymes which results in neuropathy (PKU) and many many more. From the outside, they may seem like a normal kid ( not including patients with severe physical impairment) , however, there is a bomb buried deep down within them. It threatens to explode anytime and anywhere. The uncertainty of when the problem will 'blossom' is definitely a pain in the ass ba. Everyone wants to lead a normal life, having normal diet, doing things that you enjoy, basically not having any restrictions. Sadly, those people are not granted this luxury. Its a luxury to them but yet its something that many take for granted. My advice is to treasure what you have and not regret should you lose it.

Genes, we have been learning so much about it. We learn how they are passed down, replicated and so on. Diseases resulting in neuropathy (such as huntington's disease) can be passed down from one generation to another. What happens if you are one of them with such genetic diseases? What would you do? Would you want to even get married as you know that sooner or later you will be a burden to your love one? would you just give up on your life as you know sooner or later you will be bed ridden, being rendered as useless and so on? haha, life is definitely tough for such people ya. I really pity them man. Like yu said in her blog, Y IS IT ME?!

thinking about the possible future! My IDEAL future is one that is so fantasy like, in fact it seems so fairy tale like to me. haha. I inspire to venture into the neuro area as its a field with so much uncertainty. How i wish i would have sufficient time to make some break through in this area! So much more to discover yet so little time! i have to race against time i suppose. its a race that i must not lose.

sunday!

I decided to blog while waiting for my oven to be heated up. haha, yapz, i finally know how to use the oven le. haha, i actually had to ask my hostel mate how to use the oven la! damn embarrassing man! ha, oh well, must ask when we are in doubt right? haha. anyway, i decided to have a dish washing machine next time! its so convenient man. just dump all the dishes into it ---> wait for a while---> clean plates and utensils! haha, damn fang bian i would say.

had a nice chat with yu yesterday. haha, piggy thanks for listening to my nagging ya! haha, kept it to myself for quite some time le, could not endure it anymore so i told yu my fan nao. haha, are we in the same boat? ahha, if we are the boat is so going to sink! argh~ i cant float man! oh wait, yu can be my float~ whee, okay, i feel safe being in the same boat as yu le! ^^

oh ya i bought the new shoes! yu was the first to see it! haha, i was so nervous la! i was so afriad that yu would say that its damn er~ haha, when i was waiting for her answer, it was like waiting for exam results man! haha. damn 紧张好吗！ haha, thankfully she said its ok! haha, yu you rock fishballs! wahaha. anyway dear also said its nice~ wahaha, i do have good taste ya~ ^^ oh ya, it was on offer too! wahahha, heng i did not get it too last time, or not i would have missed out on the offer man! wahaha.

wa, im so touched that kawaii cute cute knows what i like to eat~ haha, thanks dear and wc ya! haha, i have got 3 boxes here le! haha, another one would occupy half my table -_- faint~ haha. oh well, at least i got food and snacks! wheee, haha thanks kawaii cute cute! thanks ccpos!

another week is going to pass le. haha, exams are coming! omg, i am damn turned off when i look at my stack of notes man. hundred plus notes to be read. omg, i go not have such zai memory man! colin i wanna borrow your brain! ai ya you guys lend me ur brains ba! 好吗好吗好吗？

okay, shall go cook dinner le. decided to have instant noodles with chicken! haha, a little tired of rice le~ haha. chaoz. oh wait i have to load my shoe picture!

chio right?! haha.

thanks dear for all that you have done! really appreciate it! haha love ya lots my BBPOS! haha

battle with kelly

Oh man, todays practical was a pain in the ass! haha, i was being picked on by my favourite teacher, Dr Kelly. during the first 10 minutes, i was really tired so i did not really pay attention. As usual, he started to ask me questions. as i did not pay attention to what he was saying, i could not answer his questions. In fact i did not even know what his questions were! gg, he said this ' you are terrible, you do not even know your basic questions.' -_- oh man, i was so offended and i also got all pumped up! i told myself, the battle begins!

after that comment, he directed most of the questions to me again. As i am prepared now, i could answer most of his questions. After a while, he said ' i take back what i just said dr smiley.' wa liao. thank god i managed to make him take back what he said! wahaha, i fei le 9 cow 2 tiger strength to battle him man! i have totally exhausted my energy man! this is gay! wahahaha.

okay, i have to do my mcq online quiz le. busy busy busy man! wahhaa. oh well. im going home! wahaha.

cc rocks!

Hmm, I'm rather happy with my productivity today! I managed to finish more than i expected to cover. haha, today is such a good day! Speaking of having a good day, my clinical competency lesson today is the best one ever!

Today, there was an actor for us to practice on. she is someone my school hired i suppose. anyway, we had to do abdominal check up on here. this is our first time doing palpation and all so we were all very excited. Our teacher showed up how to do it once and he expects us to know it instantly -_- damn diao right. zzz. this is known as observational learning i suppose. oh well, as you all know, im 出了名的 'lucky' boy, my teacher chose me to start the ball rolling.

As you all know, im such a shy and 内向 guy, touching a female stranger is just so inappropriate~ okay, im crapping. anyway, my teacher told us to look into the eyes of the patient with utmost tender loving and care when doing palpation. i did exactly what he told me and i got suan -_- he said ' hon, i can feel so much love from your eye contact.' damn diao man, he disrupted my serious mood which resulted in me constantly laughing throughout the whole abdominal examination. so unprofessional~ my 形象 is gone le man.

oh ya, this malaysian friend of mine, whatever his name is, did something really funny. he was told to listen to the bowel movement with a stethoscope. when my teacher asked him what did he hear, he actually made the sound! he went brub brub burb. whahaha, everyone started laughing like crazy man. haha. my teacher said this ' you paid so much to study medicine, please use proper medical terms.' he was a little mean i suppose but he said it jokingly ba, so i think its okay. haha, in conclusion, im not the most bimbo fella in my class! wheee, im so happy~

anyway, there is this tension between me and my friend. haiz, why must girls be so ma fan leh. why do they have to think so much!? why cant my female friends be like yu. hmmm, maybe yu is not really a girl ba :p oh well, hope all will return to normal ba, but i think its really difficult as i am rather turned off by her le. oh well, cant be bothered~

eh yu, did you escape from one of the genetically modified pig farms?! haha, there is this farm in UK where the pigs are genetically modified to have genetic materials more similar to human. There are plans to actually do organ transplant from those pigs to human but the proposal is constantly rejected due to the possibility that pig borne virus may be deadly to human. In fact, the first thing i thought of was eh its not hala leh, malays cannot use them >< haha ok i am so evil~ haha.

oh well back to studying le! haha. night guys. COLIN I AM STILL ALIVE. Yu you have to tell me this '不要慌‘ haha

Swee lah~

Ellow everyone~ wahaha, i got an A! yes ah, finally my A is back. 你回来了（小新版本）. ha, i think wee chin knows how it sounds like ba! haha, this implies that i am so getting my chao zai and shuai qi shoe! wahaha, hmmm, for some weird reasons, i can sense disbelief from you guys! come on, im not THAT bad. okay yu, that neon shoe was a MISTAKE, desperate what cannot help it, this time i shall not fail! haha. will ask my two closer friends before buying it~ haha. its 超赞的好吗！Eh, kawaii cute cute can read hoh? :p

Time flies man, its already december! holy crap, one more month and its going to be exams!!!! -_- i am so not prepared. case close. gg. speaking of gg, i MISS dota! stupid chin kept saying that he will not be playing dota when i am back! come on, this is the game that brought us all together man! though colin emo at times (hmmm, come to think of it, its more than at times :p) its still fun right? haha, especially supper after that! haha, okay now i know why i could not lose weight when i am back in singapore. ha. so kawaii cute cute no quitting of dota permitted! haha. Come on, when we dota, we can meet up with rq too right~ haha, so exciting. im SO looking forward to it! ha. we all miss her dont we? haha.

eh YU! i realised im the last in the INVITATION LIST! i feel so unloved man! come on, come up with a new one soon ya? can put joo fang as the last one, I just dun wan to be the last ma~ 不要不要吗~ okay, i think i sound damn gay!

oh ya, i went for the USMLE talk and i was totally turned off! They test is so bloody difficult la. Its true that US has the state of the art medical technology, but do they need to make the test so bloody difficult!

Reasons why it is difficult:
1) one question has more than 100 words. ---> aka instant KO!
2) 3 right answer to one qn = 1 mark. should you get only 2 out of 3, ZERO mark. ---> instant TURN off.

oh man, the list can go on but i cant be bothered. I plan to do it when im in IC3, 3 semesters of clinical rotation coupling to my cui knowledge should allow we to do decently ba i hope. Haiz, dont care the most dont do electives in the states, do it in Singapore~ haha, can have good food and the stuff are so much cheaper back home~ haha.

ok im going to sleep le! sleeping at 1030 so tml can go library to mug! I hate NE! i think i am suffering from diabetis! I have constant thirst!!!!!!! im so dead -_-

oh well, night guys and have fun~ haha.

ps: yu rem to remake wor. i dont want be the last one la! thanks~

ccpos, i suppose life is never easy going, especially when you have ventured into the working society. 狗咬狗的社会有听过吗？so just do your best and dont disappoint uncle ho ba! jia you k? haha. pls recover too! haha. take care

Tired!

So much to do so little time! tomorrow will be my last card signing! hope i can do well! i promised myself that should i get an A i will get a pair of CNY shoes! haha, excited. hope i wont get another sucky tester man! ha.

my day is filled with work work and more work. lesser time chatting with friends online (due to the time difference too). looking back, i realised that it has been quit some time since i last web cam with kawaii cute cute le. ha, sorry man!

oh ya, THANK YOU yu for the invitation ya! haha, its quite well done man. haha, though the plan is a little 'unplanned' haha. oh well, the theme should be FREE AND EASY la yu, haha, this would make pple think that u purposely did not plan the event in a sequential manner! haha, zai right? thanks! haha.

back to work! maybe what dear siad it true ba, with no/low expectations comes no disappointments. food for thought ya. ha, 我开始觉得有点累了><

54 purple bottles standing on the wall~

woot, time flies man! haha, its 54 more days already?! thats like less than 2 months isn't it? holy crap, im starting to feel the PRESSURE already man. exams are coming. the thought that exams are coming is such a turn off man. Anyway, i will be have another card signing this friday! pray that i will get those uber good testers! 来到我的怀抱中吧！

Oh ya, i just finish watching this drama, fated to love you, its 命中注定我爱你. this drama is really good man! haha, i cried a river lah. okay, slightly more than a river, 2 rivers! The story is damn nice man, the actors and actresses are really good too! eh, sadly the male lead looks like my brother! haha. oh well, i rate this drama 4/5! love it, the soundtracks are really good too! haha, okay looks like i have fallen deeply for this drama! haha.

After watching this drama, it makes me wonder if there is really such a thing as 命中注定. Is it true that our 另一半is already pre-determined? If it really is, isn't it really cool? haha. Does it also mean that there is a supposed way that two lovers will meet one another? oh man, i think this grey area is just so facinating, i can come up if so many questions and yet not having a single answer! I love this statement that is made by the male lead. 一次是巧合，两次是缘分，第三次是命中注定! haha, probably if its time to meet your 'real' bf/gf, no matter how much you try to avoid, he/she will still meet you somewhere.

haha, anyway, i also heard from my mum that the friends you make is also associated with fate. ha, its fate that brought us all together! how amazing right?! haha, its like even though i did not like colin when i first interacted with him in secondary one, we became best friends and our lives are so 'linked'. haha, same class for 4 years in st pats, 2 years in JC, now doing the same course. We met the same AJ friends in NS too. oh man, what are the odds?! haha, im really amazed man.

Many also said that being able to be brothers and sister is 三世修来的福气！It means that you need to accumulate 3 lifetimes of 福气 -_- thats a lot man. haha, does it mean that du shen zi did not have enough fu qi?! okay, im being really lame here! ha. oh well. oh... wee chin is the only child! haha, kawaii cute cute, dont worry you still have got me when we are 45 yea? haha, so look forward to it k? whaha.

oh ya, i looked at a few pictures which totally made my day! haha, i suppose it rocks to see your friend feeling happy man! haha, i love those pictures! haha, i really thank ccpos, if not i would not have known those pictures existed. 你的快乐，我都会关心。

Ccpos~ haha, jia you for your last paper on wed ya! haha, im not the only one that is looking forward to the end of your exam man! haha :p anyway, all the best and JIA YOU! its 2 more days to freedom my dear TY wanna be~ haha. Love ya lots!

63 sexy pink bottle standing on the wall~

wheee, finally its 63! this is so cool man, 2 post ago it was 72 more days. haha, i suppose time really do fly by should you be busy. oh well, keep up the good work time. however, please slow down when i am doing revision for my exam. ><

When i was chatting with wt today, she brought up the topic about death of someone that is really close to you. I believe that many of us had actually thought of this, however, many of us tries to be overly optimistic. Are you guilty of saying this ' its still too soon to happen... lets not think about it.' Is it necessary and beneficial to avoid something which is a necessary phase of like. with life comes death and vice versa. Lets all not avoid this anymore and plan about what we should do should such situation arises must faster than you thought.

Having the luxury of time to ponder over this question, i came up with a conclusion. It may not necessary be something that is really bad. Yes, we will miss them not being around us. In fact, your loves one are only not physically around you, thats all. we are just being stripped of the ability to 'feel' them. We will still be able to see them when we close our eyes and visualise. Hence, no matter where you love ones are after they moved on, they will always be a part of you.

Just being totally random here, have you guys ever thought of what will happen should your wife or husband pass away before you? Having watch countless amount of drama, the typical respond is that the partner will just 'move on' shortly after the death of their next of kin. In fact, a survey that was conducted in Europe showed that many people actually labeled the death of their wife or husband as the 'most traumatic event' that can ever happen in their life. Research also shows that many of them lost their will to live on, especially in the older people. So drama is not really just 'bullshit' isn't it? ha. Conclusion, please watch more dramas! haha, especially korean drama~

I would not be really upset should my future wife has a shorter lifespan compared to me. I would just take it that god loves her more than i do. However, that does not undermine my love for her too. I believe at that stage, only my wife and I would know how deeply in love we are ba. ha.

Do you guys believe that heaven exist? Hmm, to me, heaven is a place where there is no pain, separation and sorrows. I would just tell myself that she is up there waiting for me, waiting for me to join her after I am done with my life. We are just temporarily separated. We will meet again, and the place is in Heaven. It there where our love can continue without anymore interferences. I would not feel lonely as her love is just like the wind, i cant see it but i can feel it.

anyway, i think i am bullshitting too much man, i still have got 2 sets of notes to complete before i can sleep. haiz, how i wish school would be as slack as it was when i was in tassie man. haha, oh well shall not whine or some fella will say im whiny~ haha.

take care guys! Yu, im still amazed at the picture u posted. you were so fat then! haha, thankfully you have lost weight! haha, oh ya, that baby picture which i claimed is yu is so not true! haha, i think yu would have been fatter back den! :p haha, oh ya colin one is true though, ha.

time to go. love you lots my ccpos!

PWNED!

oh man! i cant stand it! i got PWNED during my card signing! holy crap man, i got the legendary tester! He is none other than Dr kelly! Argh, such a pain in the ass man.

During every card signing, all the students will pray that he will be sick or something! This is how horrible he is man, the legendary Pwner of RCSI. Oh man, i must be damn suay today man! haiz.

Anyway, before the test, we saw him walking over. The girls and i were like will we be that unlucky?! however, that fat ass came rolling to our table. From that moment, the light at the end of the tunnel extinguished. I know that my aim to get straight As is gone~ how true it is man.

In fact, he started off with really questions. However, those people before me could not answer all the simple questions! i was like, -_-. Sadly, i was the LAST one and he said this ' oh, there is still another fella. I have ran out of questions but it is okay.' When he said that, i knew i was a gonner!

I was being asked out of textbook and notes questions. I could answer some of it as i have prior knowledge, but some questions were really terrible. None in my group had a clue to what the answers were. -_-. The torture was over in 10 minutes, and i will never forget him saying this 'I shall give you a B with a little plus.' I was like, damn you la old man, so old le still so lame -_-. argh! if only i did not get this cock, i am certain that i can get A man.

oh well, whats done is done. this is the break down of the scores:

2 A : asked damn easy qns -_-
2 B+
5Bs

argh, i have another card signing 2 weeks later! hope i wont get him again. Pray pray pray! Shall look at the baby pictures to cheer myself up!

72 pink bottles standing on the wall~

Yes, as reflected from the title of the post, im just 72 days away from being back in Singapore! wheee, damn excited man!

Its 8 pm here and i have completed revision for my anatomy card signing (test). Its on the abdomen region. haha, damn sad man, studying it makes me focus my attention onto my humble tummy! haiz, time to do something about my camper fascia lata man. >< anyway, i decided to make this a really happy post! haha, therefore i have decided to upload some pictures that will spice up all your lives! haha, okay maybe not colin. When i am feeling low here, looking at these pictures make me damn high! not sexually arouse kind but brighten up my day!

The amazing pictures:






































The above pictures belongs weitin's tutor! Haha, he is called tao yu if im not mistaken! haham damn cute right! oh man, he is really really adorable man! haha. there are more to come! haha







Reminds me of somebody's cheek! haha, damn cute right?! like a little monk! kawaii!!!!!















Lol, this is our fishball baby picture!!! wahaha, okay yu is so gonna kill me! anyway, just in case you are think it is not yu, it really is yu! wahaha :p the face so round like fishball man! damn cute! haha. anyone feel like squeezing those cheeks? Its 24/7 service, just give yu a call can le. ^^














Okay, since I am blogging about cute babies, how can we leave out the world's cutest baby man! haha, its none other than:

Our Co co! haha, look at that smile~ haha, so kawaii! therefore, the cutest baby picture goes to... Dr tan~ haha!















Ok, i am high enough le! all the pictures are damn cute right?! haha, should you all feel sian can just log into my blog! All your worries will vanish man! haha, especially the last picture! haha. Well now, do you feel like having children colin?! haha, i know you do! wahaha!

Oh ya anyway colin looks so much better with straight hair! haha, though i think that he reminds me of zhao yi! eh, that was my first impression man! haha, so cannot kill me for being honest! haha, i know you are cursing and swearing at your lappie screen. chill man, take it easy. look at the last picture! :p

Eh, a few days ago yu told me some jing bao stuff! haha, oh man, so exciting! haha, it reminded me of this song. 蒲公英的约定！ 可我已经分不清，你是友情，还是错过的爱情~ fishball must jia you wor! haha, remember you are not cui de! haha.

ok la, its going to be nine le! haha, better go sleep! haha, for all that are having exams, jia you!!! haha, as for ken, jia you with your work! As for my husband to be~ haha, jia you for NS ba, though u either surf net or watch tv. -_- good life man! haha.

lastly, dear i love you! ^^ wp kisses!

1 month

Today marks my one month stay here in Ireland. Isn't it amazing that time flies? I will be back in about three months time. Really looking forward to that day man! I will be going back to Singapore to celebrate Chinese New Year, most importantly, i am able to collect red packets. Hmm, i wonder if the amount that i will receive this year will be lesser due to recession. >< Oh well, when recession kicks in, everyone just have to save save and save! Erhem, our dear yu seems to be on a spending spree ya! ha, bought so many cds! whee, can leech from 大鱼圆师太了！eh, this name is so much better right yu? haha.

Hmmm, lots of stuff have been happening. Some good yet some bad. As for now i am really worried about some fella man. Hope that everything will go well for that person. Haiz, like what co-co said, its all up to the person to face his/her own issues bravely ba. Can only hope for the best now i suppose!

Hmmm, you guys are going to have your exam really soon le. Must do well and study hard ya! Eh, yu you better get your honors man, if not you will be below our dear RQ xiao jie le! haha, still kind of stunned by her posts. However, yu may be right man. She might only be joking and maybe i read too much into it. oh well, whatever the case is, i dont really bother! haha, thanks colin for that sexy comment! haha, bitch of the year goes to CoC0 *clap clap* Lastly, the roundest object of the year goes to 大鱼圆师太! haha, sorry i just couldn't resist it. ^^

Today i was being suan by ken and wee chin man! zzz, the said that i weigh heavier than the horse that always run pass my hostel. NO NO NO, there is no stable in my hostel. Its just some random police patrolling the area routine. haha. eh, yu dont get so high man, its a huge white horse with a little black spots here and there. haha, wanna recruit it for you AP movie? haha.

Dear! i know that these few days you have been really sian! I know how it feels like to do everything and yet others get the credit. I suppose this is part and parcel of a person's life. You lose some and you gain some i suppose. For your situation, what you have gained is the experience while doing the projects! haha, so you are still on a winning side ya!

Anyway, really sorry that i cant really spend much time with ya this week as the schedule for my timetable was really bad. Sadly, clinical competency will kick in next week! my wednesdays are no longer holiday le. >< oh well, we can still msn or sms each other ya? hehe.

每当我一人孤独的在街上徘徊时，我未成感受到丝毫的孤单与寂寞。那是因为我时时刻刻都能感受到你对我的想念！没错，想念真的是会呼吸的痛，但是互相想念却是很幸福的。对我而言，你就像风在说话，常常顺着我方向。 你就像海中的波浪，堆着我成长。你让我感受到一种我未感受过的幸福。这感觉实在太踏实了。我内心里的情感不是三言两语就能表达出的，简单的讲法就是这感觉太奥妙了！

但我担心的是我会不知不觉的过份依赖你。每当我有一点点想着你，就会有一点点想哭泣，对你的爱我是非常珍惜的。我们别让幸福被距离拉得太遥远好吗？无论你有多么的伤心或难受，你要记得我的存在喔！我疯狂的爱上你了！ 哈哈！那就让我在幸福车站等着你的到来吧！

dearling! haha, hope you feel better after reading this post ya! always look on the bring side of life k? ^^

eh crap! its going to be 2 am le! better stop now and hit the bed! night guys! hope to see you all soon!!!

IQ

Ever wondered what exactly is IQ? One definition of IQ is the mental age over the chronological age multiply by a hundred. However, this equation only applies to children. As we age, we should no longer look at the IQ score. In fact, we should look at the percentile that we are at when doing a IQ test. For example, having an IQ score of 120 but having a percentile of 90% implies that the person had done well for the IQ test. As a matter of fact, his/her IQ is higher than most of the people that took the test. Anyway, i wanted to blog about IQ as i learn it in psychology lesson. Moreover, wee chin was doing an IQ test and got a score of 140! omg, i got 130 and spos got 136. omg, you two are insane! haha.

Anyway, IQ was being developed by Stanford Binet. He developed it so as to differentiate children with different learning abilities. To him, children with low IQ meant that they require more teaching. However, the Americans used him idea and started to make categories for people with different IQ score. Terms such as moron, imbeciles and idiots were introduced. How irritating can the Americans be ya! haiz, why must it always be white~

In addition, this also resulted in eugenics. Eugenics: advocates the improvement of human hereditary traits through various forms of intervention. Ever heard of saying : when two silly people marry one another, their offspring will be silly too. How much truth does this statement hold?

This lead to a debate: Is IQ something genetic or it can be nature? There were many different statistics that were presented, each support the two ends of the spectrum. however, after much debate, this conclusion was made: Genetics determine the range in which the IQ can vary, environment determines whether a person reached the upper or lower limits of the range. Hmm, a very fair statement isn't it? however, should you look deeper into it, it also implies that intelligence is some what predetermined before birth. Lets say a person has a range of 90-120 whereas another person has a range of 120-150. Does it mean that no matter how much effort the first person makes, he is destined to be always behind the second person? In a really warped way, the saying that smart breed smart seems true isn't it?

Anyway, does IQ represents intelligence? In accordance to statistics, IQ scores correlate with school grades and number of years of completed schooling. It is a valid indicator of verbal/academic intelligence BUT not intelligence in general. An example would be that high IQ people are more likely to have high status job, however, they might not perform as well as another fella with lower IQ.

Okay, enough about IQ. haha, this rocks. im revising my work while blogging! its like spamming my dear with chim terms! Psychology is a really interesting subject i have to say. haha.

Hmmm, anyway, YU thank you so much for the jay's song ya! haha, made ya wasted so much time sending them one by one. really appreciate it! thanks a lot!!!!! anyway, congrats on getting second for a table tennis competition. haha, some how table tennis reminds me of yuan. haha, okay damn random.

OMG, i miss Isaac! not the JC Isaac but yuan's cousin! haha, he is damn cute man. Initially he was so shy and all. As you all know, with my zainess i managed to open him up~ wahaha, dun think wai wai man. haha, anyway he was so close to me that day! im good with kids man. Eh, i want to be the godfather for all you kids ya! haha, colin ah... dont adopt an ang moh baby hoh, or not a bit sa la~ haha. jk jk jk. zzzz, some one damn er appeared in my mind! its Isaac's sister! omg, i wont forget what she said to me! She said this ' i will tell mummy that you bully me if you dont play with me!' such a pain in the ass~ i swear i wanted to kick her in her gluteus maximus! oh man, i really miss Isaac~ will i get to see him again?! haiz, dont think so le...

oh ya, ken! must jia you wor! haha, you know what i mean! 来一场轰轰烈烈的吧！Remember im just a call, sms, msn or email away ya! remember to keep me posted ya! haha.

Chin~ thanks for pei-ing me and staying up late ya! really appreciate it! haha, you face still looks round loh. still dare to say me! bad bad bad! roar~ i am within my ideal weight ok! argh i shall lose weight for you to see! eh, gong gong with with when i get back? wahhaa.

Coco ah, thanks for always stressing me ya~ haha, i have decided to hardcore notes le. In fact that was what my senior told me! haha, i shall see what grades i get man. haha. dont get second lower or pass nia can le. haha.

Dearling! thanks for everything ya! I feel so bad always having you to wake up early! 3 am?! haha, anyway really appreciate all the things you did for me ya! Lets get to crack one another more ya? haha, when im back in Jan? haha. Im missing you badly now~ jia you with everything ya! see ya online later! haha, you are going to wake up soon le~ my piggy! hehe.

Take care guys! be safe and see you all soon! i will be back in JAN i hope! haha, ken and chin lets rock and roll~ whahaha, ok im the only one rolling. YU ah wanna join me? :p

dinner with medical students

Just came back from the dinner! Its a form of gathering for students who are studying medicine in Ireland! haha, i saw Jonathan! haha, there is this other Jonathan, 87 de, in year four now! haha, he managed to escape NS. I am really amazed man. haha, anyway he looks like he is from Taiwan~ haha, that kind of cool cool long hair look. one that ken always wanted! haha, damn nice man! ha.

it was really beneficial. got to know many guys and gals~ haha, or should i say ladies and gentlemen~ plus one gay that is. in fact, my gay dar keeps ringing lah, zzz, dont know if its false alarm or something. haha. oh ya that gay tj indian guy, he wore this tight fit green shirt which has: (arrow pointing upwards ---> the man) and (Arrow pointing downwards ----> the legend) wahaha, damn funny man. everyone was disturbing him about it! haha, and he is damn bimbo man! worst den me! haha.

ok lah, just wanted to blog this down ss i will be motivated to go for other outing and stuff. haha. chaoz~

whee second week has ended

amazingly, my second week of school term has ended! really excited about it as i am two weeks closer to going home. sadly, im also two weeks closer to exams. haha, time flies ya! haha.

anyway, i had an amazing lunch today! haha, i fried salmon, carrots, beans, mushrooms and chicken tgt ( definitely with oyster sauce and pepper!) wahaha, after that i mixed everything with the rice! it tasted amazing! haha, must be the salmon. haha, i decided to buy salmon everyweek because its good for the brain! omega somthing~ haha, cant remeber. haha. my diet here is so damn healthy! i am certain that i can lose weight here! wahahaha.

oh ya, speaking about the omega thing, my lecturer said that those milk powder which says that they will enhance or improve the infant iq and stuff are all fake! haha, cant believe i actually wanted to spam my children with those kind of milk powder! haha, so future fathers, eh, col u can just adopt lah, please do not get cheated. oh shit, i missed out future mothers~ ><

you guys are dota-ing now man! haha, how i wish i can be dota-ing with you all! damn~ i heard that there is a new map, it comes with new items too! are the items imba?! omg~ im losing out >< im going to be of ger standard le lah when im back. maybe even worst! meow~

anyway, i have decided to be a chef after i graduate! with my excellent culinary skills~ i can easily be the next ya koon toast boss man! wahaha, or i can also be a house husband! haha. spoilt with choices man~

hmm, was doing embryology yesterday. saw so many pictures of babies that were deformed and stuff. its so sad man! some had such a cute face but had their legs fused together. haiz. actually, we are just made up of three pipes! haha, thats to make this really simple and going back all the way when we were still in our mothers tummy~ haha, its not tummy~ its uterus if im not mistaken. the development of a fetus is such a complicated process which involves so many different stages~ its really fortunate that we turn out human like man. haha, so we must treasure our life!

ok feeling damn random now~ haha, i really love the jay chou song~ haha, rocks socks. oh ya, yu there is one of our senior (tj), from SC, indian, he is AJ la~ wa liao, i am really fated to meet AJ pple i think. its the OMEN~ wahahaha.

alright, waiting for spos to be back~ so long~ wahahhaa

burn out~

ok, my brain is totally saturated~ haha, my neurons are all screaming this 'give as a break you moron!' haha, its currently 11 15 pm here. just finish chatting with my dear spos! you woke up later today, haha! so who is the pig now?! eh, i think im still the biggest pig ba.

was chatting with colin many hours ago. haha, we were exchanging medical knowledges. haha, i think its more of a one sided kind of exchange. oh well, take it as a form of revison ya co co~ haha, thanks for everything ya! oh ya, kindly teach our dear NEMO how to use make up ba. its amazing that she is feeling vain recently.

oh ya, was listening to jays new songs~ damn nice lah, but i really love 失落非主流. it has a really catchy tune man. haha, both spos and I love it! haha. its really nice man, like i say jay chou rocks. i read that due to the unexpected leak, he is rearranging his songs again. moreover, he is giving out more incentives man! haha, thats the way! my idol rocks socks!!! should i pre order the cd?! haiz, its ok. in short JAY CHOU ROCKS! wheee, and dear i am not bias -_-.

OH YA! i had to do this english test last friday man. haha, it sucks! haha, its totally like gp. i thought gp was a thing of the past le. yet it came back to haunt me~ free my soul~ haha, oh well, its graded de man! hope i wont do that badly >< keeping my fingers crossed though.

haha, my lecturer told us today that malaysian's have got a bigger spleen! haha, colin was amazed when i told him too. apparently its some disease that increases the size of the spleen. ken and spos dont worry, it does not affect the body. it simply means that you have a bigger spleen! wahaha. anyway, this give us (the zero malaysian blood people) a greater advantage over the malaysians! haha, all we need to do is to stab them in their spleen and they will die of excessive bleeding! wahaha, one up for the non malaysians! haha, this was what my lecturer told us in lecture today! haha, it was really funny as there were many malaysians!

i chat with jon over msn today. we were talking about life in Ireland and stuff. this is what he told me' school has started for a month already and i just started studying' zzz, its like wth man! roar, im only in my second week and im mugging my ass off! roar! its not only me that is mugging my ass off man, i really envy UCD. its so much more humane, so much more 'fatherly/motherly'. oh ya and he told me to play WOW with him. my reply was 'wow, i did not even play WOW when i was back in singapore.' haha, he must be really smart man. sad.

oh well, got classes at 10 tomorrow! haha, hardcore lectures. 6 lectures if im not mistaken~ haiz, shall hit the bed le since im so saturated with bio chem stuff~ night guys! eh i mean morning guys! ><

Ken!

this post shall be on ken since its his birthday today! wheee, happy birthday ken! may all your dreams and wishes come through! may you be one step, no, many many steps closer to getting your first class honors! i know you can do it man! haha, with the amount of mugging you had put in, you can simply top SIM man! remember our goal? make NUS regret not accepting us! haha.

anyway, as i was studying psychology, i came across this term operant conditioning. It is a form of learning where voluntary responses come to be controlled by responses. Reinforcement occurs when an event following a response increases and organism’s tendency to make that
response! This is what our dear ken is doing! or should i say this theory explains the reason why he is always so random and lame. in fact, its getting worst! haha. even wee chin thinks so too! haha, its not his wire got disconnected, its operant conditioning!!!

anyway, to help ken from being more lame (eh, if its even possible), we should not give him such 'positive' responses to his lame-ness le! as time passes, he will be less lame! wheeeee, i am a genius right?! wahaha. zzz, i know wats going through your mind my dear! saying that i am as BHB as ever right! oh well~ its kind of expected of me isn't it.

hmmm, i better sleep soon man! too much of psychology is not helping my brain~ studying medicine so torturous to my neurons~ how many neurons have i killed?!!?!!??!?!!?!?!? i have decided to use my text book as a pillow. active diffusion of knowledge can occur!!!!! facts can move from a region of higher concentration (the book) to a lower concentration (my brain) down the concentration gradient! ok, what has mugging done to me ><

spos! thanks for waking up and chatting with me ya! haha, it makes me feel really special! however, waking up at 2 am is just NO NO man! sleep more if its possible ya! im really glad to be able to chat with ya twice a day! haha, thanks for everything!!!!! especially those e cards and your ever sweet and touching messages~ haha. hope dear will not feel so down today le ya! miss ya and love ya lots!

first post in Ireland

Wow, i have been in Ireland for about a week. In fact its more than a week le! haha, time flies.

Finally, i have so time to do a quick update! as stated in Yu's blog, i have not been online for so long. As a matter of fact, i HAVE always been online since Monday. However, my MSN here is rather koyak. I am unable to sent out messages to you guys~ so i decided to chat in skype with wc and wt. Skype is now a very important part of my life. hehe.

Stupid YU! You called me 肥猪 in your blog! roar, its ok, i shall try and lose weight here in Ireland. Hmmm, can a person lose weight during winter?! heck it, i shall try to lose weight! hehe.

anyway, lets blog about Ireland. I wont deny that it is a really beautiful place. Streets are really clean, buildings are those retro kind. Overall, i think that it is so much better as compared to Tassie. At least i was enrolled on monday. When i was in Tasmania, i was enrolled 2 weeks after lesson started man! One up for Ireland~

oh ya, i have notice a difference between the whites here and the whites back in Tassie. The is a clear distinction between the two different types of white ( one is more white than the other ^^, jkjk). The whites here are more efficient, intellectual, well mannered, friendly and most importantly they are so much smarter. It could be due to the fact that i am in a medical school, hence the image of the whites seems so perfect. haha, but no matter what, i still feel safe walking alone here in Ireland. As for Tassie, i would feel really uneasy when i am all alone. so ya, this is one major difference.

Hmmm, speaking about my accommodation, its not that bad i suppose. Its in the apartment style. I was suppose to have 3 hostel mates, however currently there are only two of them. Sadly, both of them are whites. haha. Thank god they are really good whites~ so i am fine with it! oh ya, my accommodation is 3 minutes away from school, 4 minutes away from St Stephen's Green shopping mall and 1 min away from the doctor (its subsidised by the school). So there is nothing much a can complain about my accommodation i suppose.

As for school, its really hectic. The said that the first week is know as fresher's week. in the end lectures begin on the second day! The lectures are really content heavy. Its so much more difficult to study here as compared to Tasmania man! the difference in standard is really there. Colin! Lower limb is covered within 2 lectures~ oh man, now i really hate the lower limb man. Ghee y must there be so many muscles and the stupid femoral triangle~ haiz, better not think about it.

Oh ya, i was allowed to dissect the thigh of a cadaver during my first anatomy lesson. I was amazed as i thought i will only be seeing those already dissected cadaver. Who know i was able to cut them! haha, its really fun man. I did not know that it is so easy to cut through the skin! Oh ya the body is of an old lady. I have never seen so much dead body in my life man. The smell was a little disgusting though!

about dissecting the thigh... i made 3 straight cuts and 2 of them made an inverted T. The cut was all the way to the patellar(knee region) After that, my group mates and i started to pull back the skin! hehe, it was like digging into flesh while pulling out the skin! when pulling out the skin, you can see many adipose tissues and connective tissue. haha, den we slowly look for the different muscles (which i believe you all do not want to know the name... only colin will know i suppoes). so ya that was my first anatomy lesson and i am really looking forward to the next one which is on tuesday! wheee~ sorry spos, haha you had to relive the dissection process once again~ hope you are not as disgusted ya! haha.

im doing ok i suppose so you guys dont have to worry. I certainly hope that you guys are doing well too! must keep me updated ya. Go install SKYPE lah, den can chat there! my Msn is a little koyak! haha.

spos, you are pigging in bed now when i am typing this post man! haha, however , you will be waking up in 2 hours time! wheee, no more waking up at such hours to chat le alright? haha. anyway, thanks for believing me me too! sorry to make ya go through so much more nonsense, especially those issues. haha, its gonna be worth it i believe! hehe, thanks for everything, always so understanding and accommodating! hope you have a great day ahead tomorrow ya! there will be a surprise for ya!!!!! love ya lots and take care!

you guys take care too ya! soon i will be back~ haha, dont forget to install skype ya! see ya!!!! gonna hit the books now! =.=

Its here!

Today is the 25th of September, its 2 days after my birthday, a day before i leave for Ireland.

How am i feeling now? The feelings are kind of jumbled up together. In fact, its so jumbled up that i don't even know how i am feeling at this point in time. It makes me feel like i am a little schizophrenic. haha, anyway, i shall do a massive blog ^^.

September 23:

It was my birthday! haha, i spent it with my spos. We went shopping and had dinner at the ginger park (if i remember correctly). haha, it was some fine dining restaurant. However, both spos and i were not as glam as we were suppose to be. haha, who cares, as long as you enjoy each other company nothing really matters right? haha, not like the people there will remember we two retards with absolute zero table manners. hmmm, thanks for wasting such a large amount of money ya. The food is really good, why not we return there for our belated one year celebration? It should be fun! haha.

Anyway, i wanna thank wee chin and ken for the gift that they gave me! haha, its really nice man. all the pictures that we took, all the stupid yet interesting comments that were written. I really appreciate it man. haha, too lost for words when you guys passed me the book, so at that time i could not say thank you. haha, THANKS THANKS THANKS! Eh, ken, i did not know u can be so artistic man. You have rather good blowing skills i suppose. ghee, it sounds damn wrong man! haha.

Have been listening to many songs recently. some of the lyrics are really meaningful man. haha. these are some that i really like:

1）再一次拥有：没有你的夜特别的漆黑，子能闭上双眼去感觉，没有我的夜三谁在你身边，代替了那个从前。

2） 触电：我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花，反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它，太容易的爱情故事就不耐人回味了。

3）多不懂得：我多不懂得，多不舍得，谁说割爱才跟深刻，彼此依赖，是爱不是复合，互相照顾就是感动的。

4）不会分离：把你抱在怀了，我们没有言语，感觉离别前两颗心在一起。我们抱在怀里， 我们不想言语，今天以后留下回忆，我们可以温习， 我爱你，不言语，这一刻天在哭泣。 （这首歌真的说出了我内心里的感想！）

天下无不散的宴席，离别是每个人这一身都会经历的。告别和离别的人眼里常常都会含着眼泪，心里不时也会有丝毫的不舍得。每当我想到离别的那一天将来临时，心里总有很多很多的不舍得和难过。总的来说，我还是放不下自己的家人，情朋好友，和我这身超深爱的女友！因为你们的疼爱与照顾，我才会感受到友谊的珍贵，家庭的重要性和被深爱的快乐。我再次向你们道谢，真是感谢老天让我遇见了你们，也让我体会良多。我想信像我这样幸福的人还真是不多巴。哈哈。

打着打着，眼泪像断了线的珍珠，一滴一滴的从脸颊滑了下来。脑海里不知不觉地浮现出以往的快乐日子。同大家一起的愉快日子仿佛就要成为历史了。天啊，每当我想到这时，心里常有天大的不甘心，但我还是得向命运低头。这就是为了追求梦想而付出的代价吧。你们一定要等我，再给我八个月好吗？等我回来吧！

我深爱的玮婷，我真的很感谢你这一路来的支持与疼爱。离开你是有多么的不舍得，多么的不想要。每当你问我可不可以不要离开你的时候，我的眼眶里总会含着泪，有时候我还会问问自己是不是太自私了。这样的痛苦你是不必去忍受的，你也不必天天都承受着相似子苦。我是不是对你太不公平了呢？你常说想念并不是单方面的，但如果我能把你所有的痛苦都转移到我身上，我一定义不容辞。

为何我会如此的疼爱你？我以一五一十的告诉你了，我对你说的那一番话并不是信口开河，随便说说而已，它们可是我打从心里想说的话。句句属实，绝无丝毫废话。让我们手牵手，一起向往我们的目标与未来前进好吗？我们各自都已在彼此的未来里了，以在双方的生活里留下了无法轻易消失的倒映。在爱尔兰，我对你的思念与想念恐怕会一日巨增。我相信在新加坡的你也一定不好受吧。当我们想起对方时，我们就看看皮夹里的照片吧！就如你说的，我们的每一张照片都看起来非常幸福! 实话实说，我真的以经觉得很幸福了，有你在身旁，黑暗中常常出现一道光芒，让我知道雨后有晴天。想对你说的话太多了！天阿，总的来说我爱你！！！！！！

yet another friday

I believe that i have many post with this title : Friday. haha, so this time i shall be creative and think out of the small small box. yay, this is the title of the post, in short its about this particular friday. Ghee, are you guys feeling lost? haha, no worries as you are not alone. i have no idea what i am blogging too man. ><

anyway, whats going on in my mind now. i can really express what i am feeling. the thoughts are so bundled up, so inter-related that it all seems confusing to me. haha, basically i think i need to sleep. but as usual. i shall do some thinking before i sleep.

手放开:
After listening to the song 原谅我 over and over again, i cant help but wonder if what the fella in the song did was the right thing. For those who do not know what is the song about, its about a guy giving up his love one as he thinks that she deserves someone better. I know that this phrase 'you deserve someone better' is a cliche during break ups. However, in the case whereby it is really how the fella who initiated a break up feels, isn't it something very 伟大. Something that is way beyond what a normal person will do?

To leave the ones you really love is not as easy as ABC i suppose. This is because there are many many memories that will never ever be forgotten. This leads to a burning question in my head, how does a person get over his/her failed relationship? it is through a long period of time and stuff. 时间可一冲淡一切. haha, this is what cherry ( a friend of mine in Tasmania ) told me. BUT how much time is need to chong dan everything? 5 years? 10 years? haha, when i have the answer i shall blog it again. haha. anyway, my stand is that the fella who gives up on his love one because he/she deserves someone bettter seems wei da yet stupid -_- yea, 50/50 i suppose.

anyway, shall blog about happy stuff and not those nonsense above. just ended lan gaming with colin, ken, ger and chin chin. hah, this will be our last dota game together for the year 2008 man. damn, will surely miss dota-ing with you guys every friday when i am in ireland. sianz, can i be granted more time in singapore? haha. lame shit i know. oh well, i shall have to look forward to the first dota outing with you guys in year 2009 ba! haha. we must still rock socks ya! haha. anyway, we won all the games today, THREE CHEERS! spos, i am zai de k~ haha, or should i say my team mates rocks~ haha.

This afternoon, i had sushi buffet with my dear shit. haha, though we did not eat much, we did order a number of 4.90 dishes. haha, so i suppose it is worth the money ba! haha. anyway, smelly crayfish, thanks for the treat ya! haha. oh ya, spos was so luckly today. she wanted this banana keychain and she got it! ghee, im amazed man, who knows, i may be my spos lucky star! haha.

sadly. i really dont feel like leaving singapore. the thought of it sucks. 8 months and 2 weeks is really long man!

spos, i am really sorry that i have to let you go through such nonsense man. Its a pity that you cant have your bf to be always around you when you need him to be. haha, some times i find myself really selfish to want a long distance relationship. but as for now, im thankful to have you by my side. lets hope that we can achieve our common goal ya Love ya lots.

As for the purchasing of the stuff, wanna do it tomorrow when we meet? :p seems rather challenging man.

zzz, i shall stop here. mum is lying on my bed! she is trying to nag me to sleep. gheee, i hate to admit it but it sure is working! haha, choaz !

21st~ old le -_-

Ok. im not really 21 yet, haha, i will be 21 in nine more days! haha, faster then co co, yu, ken and chin chin! wahaha, ok i am old -_-. the truth hurts man! damn! haha.

anyway, thanks for everything yesterday ya! haha, though i am suffering from the repercussion of having too much left over ( i had to eat the noodles and fried rice for breakfast man!). not forgetting the kawaii KEY shape cake, haha. i am so dead, period.

oh man, i saw a hardworking fish yesterday man. haha, she was the satay woman~ eh, correction, ah ma aka aunty i mean. haha, most of the satay that you guys consumed is being BBQ-ed by fishball man. haha, wo jia de fishball shi zai de. haha.

ps: those oilly satays are the result of my cousin bbq-ing, haha, it has got nothing to do with yu. :p though she is not a good mentor! haha.

Thanks for the gift man. haha, though the sweater is a little tight fitting, i shall use it as a reminder that i cant grow fatter! its damn nice though. you guys have good taste like me! hehe, just kidding~ thanks wee chin and ben for the belt ya! haha, damn nice! haha. kiss kiss? haha.

zzz, stupid pei yu commented that i am chi dai in one of the pictures! so mean~ u broke my fragile and innocent heart~ its ok, wee chin will still be with me at the age of 45 regardless of me being chi dai or not! (i think ><) haha.

oh ya, rq wants yu to ship/fly /throw/roll.. wateva works, ger to her. moreover, she says that she misses us! oh man, so sweet of her man. you guys have to catch up with her when she is back from Australia ya! haha.

there is still this burning question in my head! IS BEN ONG GAY! oh man, he seems like he is aj, but yet he has some straight aura. haha, ok lah he is BI~ k k k, mystery solved~ case close! dont wanna think so much about it le.

hmm, while i was drinking, i suddenly thought if yuan. haha, yea man i know its kinda random. its really fun drinking with him! haha, too bad no chance le. hey, ger seems ok with the idea of plying truth or dare~ haha, so lets play truth or dare with him man! haha, colin u can ask all the burning questions too! haha, sounds damn fun! haha.

thanks shit for the gift u 'made' ya. haha, its really beautiful man. haha, with that i can hear your voice anytime i want when i am in Ireland! haha. brilliant plan right? haha. thanks for making me feel so fortunate to have ya around ^^ though you may not be a really good card game partner~ haha. thanks once again for everything my dear!

financial concept ><

sadly, when i was out shopping yesterday, i lost my financial concept. yesterday, i met up with jun wei to get Joseph belated birthday gift. ok, to be honest, i did not want to get any gift for Joseph. haha, yesterday's aim of the meeting is to catch up with jun wei! haha.

as we were shopping around in parkway parade, i saw this beautiful orange colour polo shirt! haha, in fact, i fell in love with the shirt a few days ago. its really quite nice man, or at least it is to me! haha, maybe i should take a picture of me in the shirt and post it on my blog like some friend of ours in Australia? haha. nah, better give that idea a miss as i sense impending danger and criticism from our dear co co! haha. fear not, it does not resemble any snake skin ^^. its just a normal shirt, haha. oh ya, it cost $99. sianz, now i regret getting the shirt man. This is because with 99 dollars, i can buy a bag lah! zzzz, loser-ish me -_-.

oh well, screw the financial concept thing. some times we need to do some retail therapy right? without spending how can there be a rise in GDP. sometimes its ok to spend a little money, isn't it? ok ok ok, enough of deluding myself. haha, i was just playing a role in consumerism. haha, thick thick smoke man! haha.

had a long long long chat with jun wei yesterday. he was talking about his ex and stuff. though it get boring at times, i think i have already gotten use to it like many many years ago. haha. he was saying how good/bad his past relationships were. there are lessons to be learnt from every failed relationship i suppose. haha.

wee chin! my sis stole the book ' a child called it' from me! roar, she brought it to work today! damn man, i was suppose to finish it by today de. oh well, shall nag at my sister when she comes home from work today! haha. eh, with much consideration, i shall drop the idea of nagging her as the table might turn man. haha, it may end up being she nagging me! haha, that's lady's power i suppose.

was chatting with my brother over msn a few hours ago. we touched on the issue regarding the possibility of striking a balance in a relationship. The balance meaning both parties give and take equally. After a long debate, i realise that it is indeed difficult to strike a balance in a relationship. its is near impossible to give as much as you receive, thats a sure thing man. We ended the debate agreeing on the point that both parties should appreciate one another and not take anyone for granted (this is my spos idea which makes lots of sense). so ya, im just blogging this down to ensure that i will not take my shit for granted. ^^

oh well i should end here le, going to watch shao nian yang jia jiang! haha, apparently the qi lang is jolin's boyfriend! haha, faint. ok lah, they look good together! however, that is only my humble opinion as there are many out there that disagree! haha.

7th september

With a blink of an my three months here in singapore is coming to an end. it would imply that my new chapter in life would unfold! haha. for some weird reasons, i am not at all excited. The fact that i may be the only singaporean in rcis is also such a major turn off. When i am back in Tasmania, i had 2 singporean friends man. what in the world is going on ><. oh well, shall just heed ken's advice, that is to make friends there! ^^ that should not be that difficult, i hope ><.

Summery of this week:

1) Zoo~ : whee, i went to the zoo this week! had lots of fun with spos, my brother and his girlfriend. haha, this trip is so much more memorable than the one i went with keith, benji and mango. haha, i really love the sea cow! omg, it looks damn huge man! haha, reminds me of shabu whale -_-. vision yu swimming~ omg~ kawaii~ haha, ok i am so dead. Anyway, i went to the zoo with high hopes of seeing anaconda! haha, sadly there was none! i should feedback to the zoo man. anacondas are such lovely pets~ ok im lying~. hmm, im lazy to upload the pics that are taken.

2) Food fair: there was a food fair at suntec during the weekend! haha, called colin to go but he does not feel like going. oh well~ had lots of food man! haha, i spammed durians and many many many oily food! eh sorry yu, i am still using the NS phone, therefore i did not take any pictures. hmm, there should be more coming up i suppose. haha, must go next time ya! its not that crowded.

oh ya, i pang seh ger on friday. ok, it was suppose to be a mass pang seh de man. in the end i was the one that kanna fire by ger! faint man. he sounded really angry when i called him. oh man, lesson learn. no more trying to organise outing le. haha, organise only when it is 100% certain that everyone is in favor of the decision made. anyway, had a chat with ger during supper, sort of clear the air, with the help of colin and ken~ haha, thanks guys! heng got you guys to help back up that white lie! haha, ok maybe its not a white lie.

zzzz, some random car just farted a few seconds ago! i really hate such cars man. how can they fart so loudly!!! roar, so inconsiderate! those loud noise always make me jump >< er xin! haha, my maid thought that there was an accident due to the loud fart! haha, so funny. she was like ' is there an accident hon wei?' see what those fart can do to peoples' mind?! get a life man those people!!!

anyway, its 19 more days and i will be out of singapore. this year, i do not look forward to my birthday. usually i would be so happy when my birthday is arriving, but for this year, its slightly more special. it is labelled with this ' 3 more days to ireland'! faint~ argh, i dont wanna go!!

spos, its sad that time is never in our favor. time seems to past at the speed of light when i am with you. does it mean that it will also be like this when we are not with one another? anyway, sorry that i made ya cry today. haha, though it was not at all intentional, i really hate to see ya cry man. when i saw you crying, tears cascaded down my cheeks too. no good~ we both should not cry that much le k? haha. yupz, like what you said, we will both get through this shit together ya. love ya lots ^^

start of a new week

Wheee, today is monday. it also implies that it is the start of a new week. sadly, it also means that i am one week closer to going to ireland! zzz, i am so not at all excited.

tomorrow phil will be coming over to my place as i purchased some insurance policy. i was not really in favour of it man. however, being such a logical and zai financial consultant, he managed to persuade my mother and i to get a policy from him. anyway, its only for me as my mum says we already have too many policies. i am amazed that i am quite highly insured man. both mum and had has different types of insurance policies for us. looks like i may not be that broke after i age. thanks to my parents!!! hehe.

hmm, had steam boat with my family today. haha, my bro was unable to join us though. i lied to m mum that weitin likes pig's intestine! haha, initially my mum was so amazed. she said in chinese ' i thought u do not like pork meat due to its smell, why will you like pig's intestine? it has a stronger smell isn't it?' i could not stop laughing man. however, i had to face the warth of spos as she started to pinch me and even bite me! haha, she must be too hungry! i shall post the picture of my injured hand.



amazingly, her teeth left a happy face mark on my hand! haha. look closely, i cant believe it can turn out like THAT man! haha. once again she never fails to amaze me. haha. though that bite hurts like hell, its worth it as the scare brings smile to my face! haha. love you shit! haha.

haha, since my dear spos got me a patrick boxers and a t-shit which has 'im a slow learner on it' i shall forgive her! haha. thanks for the gift dear! haha, will wear it for you soon! ^^

oh ya, i want ot thank wee chin and ken for listening to my nagging yesterday! haha. i have already did what you guys told me to do! hehe, apparently her mum also told her that! haha, i suppose great mind thinks alike? haha. thanks once again! haha

hmm, tomorrow will be a busy day man. haha, have to send the car for survicing, go to a dentist and collect my new passport! damn man, busy busy busy day! haha.

ok i shall start with my face treatment le! haha, hope my face gets well soon! haha. chaoz.

ps: happy bday yuan, may all your dream and wishes come true! though i know u will never see this and would never wan to hear this from me. night everyone

fun fun fun day

Today is the last day of the seventh lunar month aka the hungry ghost festival. Time flies, a month passed so rapidly. How i wish time will move at the speed of light when i am in Ireland. That would imply that i would be back in the blink of an eye! haha~ cheers. ok enough of zi highing.

Yesterday i web cam with Yu. her new laptop is rather good i suppose. her web cam did not lag and i can hear her rather clearly. haha, Yu don't worry, the laptop is a good buy! definitely better than mine which was purchased by a COMPUTING student! ghee, what is the world coming to man! haha.

I had lots of fun today man. thanks to chin chin's mother, my dinner was so amazing! haha, got fish bladder soup, kuay pi tee ( don't really know what is the spelling). haha. The dishes are so much better as compared to those that can be purchased from outside! haha, this is mothers' power i suppose. haha.

anyway, chin's mother is really damn funny. i spoke to her on the phone as to thank her for the deliciously made dishes. she was so humble and kept insisting that all that matters is that we all enjoy it. haha, such a nice aunty. haha, i told my mum to learn some cooking from wee chin's mum so i can have a larger variety of food! haha.

Sadly, i might hit 87kg soon! omg, if i do spos will be so amazed! haha, its not that easy to gain 7 kg is it? its ok, when im 82kg i shall just go on a strict diet! haha, by then i would require help from a slut who wants to lead a drama-less life. come on, we all know its not possible~ haha.

we bought a horror movie today, it cost only 9 dollars. let me recall the tittle, its... in thai, cant type! haha. anyway, the movie is damn lousy. the plot is so not fantastic, the acting skills of the actors and actresses are of such a low standard. haha, the ghost seems so koyak too. haha, its like her eye liner ran or something. haha. Hmm, lets give it some credit, certain parts did scare me, ken and spos. haha, it is because she just suddenly appeared without any warning! tmd, i was certain that my scream did wake some neighbour. haha.

while we were happily scaring ourselves, wee chin was dotaing! zzz, he was so determined not to watch the horror movie man. he even used an ear piece so as to listen to music from my laptop! ghee.. Chin, lets watch a horror movie tgt when we are at the age of 45! haha.

hmm, this is all i suppose. i shall not add in the parts whereby i totally pwned spos. Food for thought: are there fans that can function like an air con? does urine improves the skin condition? haha, the answers are just so simple isn't it? haha.

alright, going for a buffet in the afternoon. have to wake up at 9! haha, its possible as spos is going to give me a wake up call! haha.

its another fun filled day with spos again! haha. love ya lots spos. the number of times i pwn you is proportional to the amount of love for ya! haha. anyway you are already sleeping when i post this blog. oh ya, im sorry to wake ya up from your sleep ya. i know you were waiting for my msg too! love ya lotsss!

friday

although im blogging about friday, its already Saturday! haha, its now 0213 man! haha, just felt like posting a post. haha.

this morning, i went to NUS. met up with co co and went to the NUS co-op to get books. oh man, used up about $327 for six books. though its much lesser than i expected, its still considered rather expensive! haha. oh well, since it will come in handy, its all worth it i suppose. or at least i hope.. haha.

went to maple clinic in the afternoon. As i told spos, the doctor is so motherly. oh man, i just felt so at home when i was in her consultation room. her tone, her pitch and everything just makes her seem like an excellent mother. haha, what did for one more day do to me man! haha. just a random thought, who knows she might actually be a lesbian! An old lesbian~ ewww~ turn off haha. hmmm, i shall just remember her as my 'motherly' doctor.

just a few minutes ago, i did the intensive face treatment! haha, its so much work man. it better work or i will... kill... haha, hmmm i should at least look decent when i am in Ireland i suppose. haha.

oh ya, yu was so amazed that i actually found the cheese mushroom prate ( cost 2.20) expensive. haha, apparently she cant believe that i DO find stuff expensive. oh well come on, people do grow up de loh! haha, must have more financial concept. haha, or not rq will look down on me~ no good. haha, anyway i still think paying 2.20 for a prata seems too expensive! with another 80 cents can eat mee le loh! haha. ok, i am suffering from the ah ma cum aunty disease. haha. or should i say my spos taught me well. Thanks dear for making me so much more financially concerned~ haha. love ya! ^^

hmmm, its going to be less then a month le. all this dota-ing, late night supper. nights off dinner, movie watching and so on will soon come to an end. haha, maybe not end, 9 months? haha. the thought of leaving to ireland sucks as i can only got to come back every nine months. whats worst is that i will not be in Singapore during Chinese new year! sianz, this shall be the first new year that i will be spending overseas, away from my family and friends! argh, the thought if it is just such a turn off! zzz. dont wanna think about it le.

anyway, thank you slut! haha, making me panic before i even reach the foreign country is just so so so not helpful man! zzzz, another reason to feel turn off by ireland. haha, but seriously speaking, thanks for helping me choose the books! haha, fat slut without drama in his life is just so not fat slut lah! haha.

ok, i shall end here~ haha, tomorrow will be a better day! haha, i hope! anyway, thanks for everything guys ^^

for one more day

This book, for one more day, was recommended by wee chin. haha, it turned out to be rather enlightening. The story has a good plot i suppose, however, i still think that something is missing from it. There is this missing element that would make this book much better. haha.

anyway, i finished the book within 2 days as it is rather thin. i believe co co can finish it in less den half a day? oh ya, chin i did not tear after reading the book. maybe i had a higher expectation for it ba, thats y i was not that emotional after completing it.

anyway, in summary, this book talks about how amazing mothers' love can be. hmmm, it is stated that mothers' love for their kids is the purest form of love that can be found. To be truthful, i think there there is also a lot of patience and even stupidity.

why stupidity? how many times have we not stand up for or argue with our mother? many many times i suppose. hmm, or thats for my case. ha.

Are we guilty of associating our mother with such terms:

irritating
annoying
busybody
un-cool
naggy
embarrassing
(the list can go on and on man)

upon completion of the book, i did do some reflection. i looked back onto my 'childhood' times. I was amazed that i actually remember most of the incidences where i make my mum angry.

i remember this incident clearly as i did hurt her rather badly. For some reason, i was annoyed with my mother. maybe its due to some of her warped thinking and logic which just does not make any sense to me at the that point in time. i remembered saying this to her in Mandarin ' can you stop being so annoying and irritating. this is my life and i want to live it my own way. sometimes i really hope that you would disappear!' she said this ' you just stabbed my heart'. after finishing that sentence, she walked away and started crying. Thanks to motherly love, she got over it a few days later.

as i am blogging, i realise that it might not be stupidity after all. it seems to be giving your child a benefit of the doubt. maybe this might have crossed many mothers' head when their child said nasty things to them : 'they are still young. they need to have more exposure to the outside world. they need time to grow up. i should just let this matter rest.'

The reason why i used to take my mum for granted is probably cos she is always by my side. it is our nature to take things for granted until we lose it, isn't it? comparing myself to yuan and weitin, i am so so so fortunate to always have my mum beside me when i was young. In the past, when i reach home from school, my mum would always be making lunch or dinner for me. however, for people who are less fortunate, there mother would be either working or just not at home. i remember spos once telling me that she hates going home early in the past as she will always be alone at home, at times her brothers will be around. haha, maybe that has trained her to be more independent whereas for me im still so dependent on my parents. (shame) haha

ok, in conclusion, mothers rock socks! haha. lets all not take them for granted ya? we better not regret spending insufficient time with them after they pass on to another world. haha.

shit man, its raining now~ this whether is making me so sleepy~ haha. i should end here and catch up with some sleep~ haha.

sunday

Yesterday, i went with ken, col and nemo to st james for some nus science thing. haha, had lots of fun man. As expexted, ken's friend won! haha, he is quite shuai i suppose, but a bit too ah beng! he has the 'come punch me' look man! haha, oh well i suppose its appealing to thoes ah lian ah hui ba. haha.

F5 is really stunning! when i told yu and col about it, they gave me that turn off cum watever look >< come on, she is damn hot lah! fine she maybe a bit cheena but still quite kawaii de loh! waiting for fishball to send me the pics! haha.

thank god we did not waste our 12 dollars! haha, the goodie bags that were given to individuals are rather attractive i would say. haha, as usual, our ah ma yu was the first to check out what was in the goodie bag~ haha, its like so expected! haha. she was DIGGING through the whole bag lah... oh ya with the help of the monkey! haha.

yu's shirt has this BABY MONKEY thing. haha, i fell in love with it when i first saw it! haha, i was the first one to realise that there is something amiss with its eye! haha. im damn zai man! haha. however, i think that many passer by think that i am some pervert as it seems like i am staring at yu's G NAI when im looking at the over size monkey. haha. oh ya, yu was as bimbo as ever, i shall not say what she did when she was at the information counter! haha.

oh ya, our dear ken actually received a kiss from some girl! omg i am so envious! haha. ken you have to teach me more man! haha, so i can be more attractive! haha.

spos just came back from Malaysia today. haha, she bought me cookies, a bmw toy car model and made me a card. haha, though its a simple card, i really love it! haha. Anyway, i went to her place for dinner today. met her family members. haha, her mum thought i cant speak Mandarin! faint, i got go K de k! zzz, damn sad. haha.

gave spos the framed up puzzle today. haha, she said she really love it. I left the room after i gave her the puzzle, when i came back she hugged me so tightly. haha, i think she cried while reading the note that i wrote behind the frame. haha, she kept hiding her eyes from me! haha. anyway, doing the puzzle was worth it! haha, it rocks to see her smile! haha, ok im like some love sick boy here! haha. oh ya slut, u are so gonna teach me sewing! im so not doing some 5000 puzzle!!!! hell no!!!

co co was complaining about sewing just now! haha, he has to finish sewing something for his friend by the third of aug. haha. all the best slut~ haha, must take a picture of the final product ya! haha. it should look good! haha i hope ><

oh ya, yu thanks for that gift ya! haha, you made me seem like some terrifying terrorist! haha. like enter my room and some bomb will blow up! zzz, hey im a chinese here ya. haha.

hmmm, mum told me to hold a celebration for my 21st bday. so qiao man, colin and expired fishball asked me that question yesterday. but like a bit ma fan leh, dun know wat to do also~ haha, maybe just ask mum to give me the money lah den i can put it into my bank! financial concept! ^^

ok lah, i shall stop here. have a great week ahead guys! chin! see ya for breakfast! haha.

summary

Ok, it has been a long time since i last posted! haha, fingers are becoming too fat le, lazy to type. Ok, shall cut the crap and type what i wanna blog.

Yes ah! i have finally completed the 500 pieces puzzle! i was suppose to finish it before spos is back. Amazingly, i managed to complete it within 2 days! haha. too bad i do not have a camera, or i would have taken the puzzle which is already frame up! wheee, im amazed at how zai i am. ^^

had a small argument with the slut. haha, thanks to the over size nemo, i finally know what co co was emo-ing about. haha. thank god that xiao jie is not pissed off le, lai xiao yi ge hao ma? haha. anyway, like what you guys suggested, i shall have better time management. As for now, i have to improve on my financial and time concept. does this improvement thing comes to an end?! >< looks like i have lots of self improvement to do. self help book anyone?

on monday, i crashed ken banking and finance lecture. I realised the lecture style is so different from aussie. The students behaviour is also different! To my surprise, i was the only fella that was sleeping during the 3 hr long, boring and dry lecture. other students were all listening and taking down notes! its just so amazing, so not lecture like! haha. no wonder ken is feeling the stress man! jia you! mug more and first class is within your reach! haha.

oh ya, another thing about the sim lecturer. He looks weird la! haha. Moreover, his command of english is not as good as aussie lecturer. ok, its like duh isn't it. haha. overall, the lecture is rather enlightening as i certainly did learn more about investment! haha. however, business is just not my cup of teh~ haha.

SIM has lots of cai cai man! haha, the average standard for gals is just so high! haha, its a norm to see gals carrying LV bag, Gucci bag blah blah blah. in conclusion, SIM is a rich kid school! haha, ken lets go find so rich gal and our life is set! wheee, three cheers for xiao bia lians! haha.

hmmm, recently i chat with rq and read her blog. she seems to be feeling rather upset. haiz, i feel so sad for her man. is she the only one that is facing such emotional torture? how does ger feel?! i really wanna know man. haha.

ok lah, i shall stop here le. gonna web cam with wt from malaysia. i believe the connection definitely suxs! haha. chaoz

happy

today is such an amazing day man! haha, to sum it up, its a Happy day for me! haha, life has never been so bright man! haha.

Today, i have successfully rejected NUS and withdraw from UTAS. After so long, i decided to settle the issues once and for all! haha. Of cause i could not have done it without the help of my spos~ haha!

I met xue na today man! haha, she still looks the same! haha, chao ah lian~ haha, but she is still as ALIVE as ever! haha. Apparently she knows that im attached, i wonder who told her man. Ha :p. It feels great to meet up with friends you have lost contact with man~ its amazing~ haha.

wa, there is just too much to blog about man! haha, but im just so lazy to type! haha.

oh ya, i shall blog this down:

YU! aha, thanks for the post card ya! haha, though the condition of it was rather bad when i received it >< haha, its the thought that counts right? haha. Oh ya, dun be so sianz le ya! hope u are feeling better too! faster come back so we can go k together ya! haha, MISS YA LOTS~

oh ya stupid chin! ask me to call ya den never pick up! haha, roar!!!! u owe me.... nvm get it from you when we are 45? haha

Spos~ thanks for everything once again! haha, you are the love that came without warning! haha, no matter wat happens, i will not ask you stupid questions le. i will be with you as long as you want me too~ you are my very first thought in the morning and the last when i fall! love ya lots!

friday~

today i met up with weitin. Went all the way to suntec to deposite a cheque which is worth 6 digits. Can faint man, never held so much money in my life before man! haha.

went to crystal jade for lunch today. I was so mean! i forced weitin to eat pork! wheee! ok i did not force her, i encouraged her to consume pork! haha. Its a proud achievement for me man.

weitin had dinner with my family. Dad and mum asked her many cute questions. The classic question from my dad is ' it has been a long time since i last saw you, where have u been?'. Ha, we realised that my dad always say and ask the same stuff. haha, one point for my dad man.

As my mum knows that weitin does not like pork, she told weitin to tell her mum to purchase pork from indonesia. She said pork from australia has a weird taste! haha. damn funny. I think my mum was talking cock about pork from different country man. haha. where does air pork come from?! haha.

oh ya, watch the movie hell boy 2. Its a little boring man! haha, no chio bus and no shuai ge... haha... no point watching the movie... ha...

aiyo must go fetch my lousy brother le! wahaha... chaoz

fun day!

today was such a fun day! met up with co co and ken. The three of us went to K!!! wahahaha, though we 'killed' many songs, it was still really fun. However, our dear fishball was not there with us! Faster come back k? only then can the four of us go K together again.

After dinner, we met ger, rq and jon and we played dota. Colin got rather pissed off with ger BH, and this is not a rare occurance at all! haha, ger bh is a little...erm... too hum? haha, this is the best word that i could use to describe his bh! haha.

I heard from jon the the air ticket from singapore to dublin (2 way) is about 2800. holy shit man! I am so upset as it means i can only come back to singapore once in 9 months! it seems so so so so long! I suppose like what wei tin said, we should make the best out of the worst ba! haha. Things happen for a reason i suppose! faint...

whee, i will be meeting my spos in like 13 hours time! we have not decide on where we should go! ha, maybe somewhere near our place ba since my clumsy spos sprained her ankle >< how smart can she get right?! haha. Too bad i am excuse heavy load! thus i am unable to carry her! wahaha, see i am zai right? haha.

thanks spos for the beautiful wall paper that u made! hehe, its really beautiful! Anyway, thanks for all the confirmation that u gave me! love ya lots and really hope to see you soon!

ok lah, nothing much to blog le. Ken dun think too much ya, like i say, things happen for a reason! therefore just do what you think is right ba. Like what colin says, there is no point in avoiding a person! what will happen WILL happen, so ya! be like me ba! 勇敢的放手一搏！haha, and for co co u still haven tell me what happened! haha...

final conclusion

Today, the results are out! wheee, i got high distinction for all the four units. Parents were really proud of me. My brother asked me this question over dinner, 'kor, why dont you continue studying in tasmania since you are doing so well?' I just told him this, 'my dream is to be able to practice medicine.'

The road towards being able to practice medicine is really not an easy one for me. Rejected by countless universities! damn it man. Ha, thank god i was granted this chance to persue my dream, i shall do my best! roar! haha.

Anyway, i did a really bad thing today. Mingyuan messaged me saying that he still likes wei tin and stuff. upon receiving those sms-es, guilt overwhelmed me again. It feels really bad man. It was so bad that i sent wei tin an sms to tell her to reconsider being with yuan again as i feel he needs her more than i do. Because of this stupid moment, she got really sad. I know i was such a loser man, i really regretted what i did ><.

anyway, she called me and she was crying really badly. the amount of pain that i felt in my heat was tremendous. Breathing became difficult. I may sound dramatic but i really felt that feeling! i told her that i am really sorry and stuff as i know i did hurt her deeply. Thank god she is so understanding and accepted my apology. She said that she was also in the wrong as she did not put herself into my position. ^^ thank god i did not lose someone so special because of the silly things i did. What made me really certain that falling for her is not a mistake was that she said ' loving you makes me not want to consider other possible alternatives. You made me feel that i am in love for the first time.' Those words are simple but they really do touch my heart! I am starting to love her so so so much more.

Anyway, like what ken, col and wc say, i should not really bother about what mingyuan feels and stuff. I did not do anything that is wrong. Everything happened because i was always there for her when she is down and vice versa. In accordance to phil. i can give her much greater happiness as compared to yuan. I just need to be more confident of myself! haha, thanks guys for always being there for me too.

oh ya ken, i may not seem appreciative during dota, so im sorry. My mind was just too pre occupied with what i should do and stuff. So thank you k? hope we will have fun k-ing tomorrow! haha.

Spos, i am really sorry that i hurt you. i promise that i wont ask such silly and meaningless questions ever again! Thanks for being so amazing. Love ya lots! I will be with you as long as you want me too k? thanks!

to sin or not to sin? haha

While waiting for wei tin I shall just post a simple post. Today, I will be attending Patrick’s 21st bday party! Wheee, I am like so excited. Damn it man, I have to help me do decorations lah! Wat a pain in the kunt hole man! Yuan was the one who forced me to do the decorations stuff. Oddly, I have this feeling that he will not attend today’s party. I smell something fishy, not fishball-ish~ our dear fish ball is in HK~ haha.

Oh ya, I did not blog this down. The last time I met yuan, when we were about to bid goodbye, I swear that I saw tears in his eyes! Hmm, he insisted that those were not tears so ya.. haha, maybe it’s the different perfumes that I FORCED him to sniff ba >< It was fun though.
Anyway, I got a bit emotional yesterday! Haha, I was feeling a bit down. Ok, a bit seems to be an understatement. Anyway, I have gotten over it already! Thanks colin for always being there for me even though I always make ya angry ^^ really glad that I have u as a friend! Hope I did not scare u yesterday man. Anyway thanks again!

Hmmm, anyway I do know that YOU this mega slut have your own problems too. I know you turn to others for help so its ok. Always remember this ya, I will also always be there for you! Don’t bottle things up or you might explode man! Hehe, I trust you can handle your emotions more effectively than me! Jia you and don’t think so much ya. Whats done is done, there is nothing we can do about it but to live with the fact that we might have done a few horrible mistakes. We are sinners! Does going to church/temple help us? Haha.

im really gald to have my spos with me. Sorry that i did not tell you how i felt regarding yuans issue. like what you told me, i am glad that i have you as a part of my life too! love ya lots!