final conclusion

Today, the results are out! wheee, i got high distinction for all the four units. Parents were really proud of me. My brother asked me this question over dinner, 'kor, why dont you continue studying in tasmania since you are doing so well?' I just told him this, 'my dream is to be able to practice medicine.'

The road towards being able to practice medicine is really not an easy one for me. Rejected by countless universities! damn it man. Ha, thank god i was granted this chance to persue my dream, i shall do my best! roar! haha.

Anyway, i did a really bad thing today. Mingyuan messaged me saying that he still likes wei tin and stuff. upon receiving those sms-es, guilt overwhelmed me again. It feels really bad man. It was so bad that i sent wei tin an sms to tell her to reconsider being with yuan again as i feel he needs her more than i do. Because of this stupid moment, she got really sad. I know i was such a loser man, i really regretted what i did ><.

anyway, she called me and she was crying really badly. the amount of pain that i felt in my heat was tremendous. Breathing became difficult. I may sound dramatic but i really felt that feeling! i told her that i am really sorry and stuff as i know i did hurt her deeply. Thank god she is so understanding and accepted my apology. She said that she was also in the wrong as she did not put herself into my position. ^^ thank god i did not lose someone so special because of the silly things i did. What made me really certain that falling for her is not a mistake was that she said ' loving you makes me not want to consider other possible alternatives. You made me feel that i am in love for the first time.' Those words are simple but they really do touch my heart! I am starting to love her so so so much more.

Anyway, like what ken, col and wc say, i should not really bother about what mingyuan feels and stuff. I did not do anything that is wrong. Everything happened because i was always there for her when she is down and vice versa. In accordance to phil. i can give her much greater happiness as compared to yuan. I just need to be more confident of myself! haha, thanks guys for always being there for me too.

oh ya ken, i may not seem appreciative during dota, so im sorry. My mind was just too pre occupied with what i should do and stuff. So thank you k? hope we will have fun k-ing tomorrow! haha.

Spos, i am really sorry that i hurt you. i promise that i wont ask such silly and meaningless questions ever again! Thanks for being so amazing. Love ya lots! I will be with you as long as you want me too k? thanks!