Its here!

Today is the 25th of September, its 2 days after my birthday, a day before i leave for Ireland.

How am i feeling now? The feelings are kind of jumbled up together. In fact, its so jumbled up that i don't even know how i am feeling at this point in time. It makes me feel like i am a little schizophrenic. haha, anyway, i shall do a massive blog ^^.

September 23:

It was my birthday! haha, i spent it with my spos. We went shopping and had dinner at the ginger park (if i remember correctly). haha, it was some fine dining restaurant. However, both spos and i were not as glam as we were suppose to be. haha, who cares, as long as you enjoy each other company nothing really matters right? haha, not like the people there will remember we two retards with absolute zero table manners. hmmm, thanks for wasting such a large amount of money ya. The food is really good, why not we return there for our belated one year celebration? It should be fun! haha.

Anyway, i wanna thank wee chin and ken for the gift that they gave me! haha, its really nice man. all the pictures that we took, all the stupid yet interesting comments that were written. I really appreciate it man. haha, too lost for words when you guys passed me the book, so at that time i could not say thank you. haha, THANKS THANKS THANKS! Eh, ken, i did not know u can be so artistic man. You have rather good blowing skills i suppose. ghee, it sounds damn wrong man! haha.

Have been listening to many songs recently. some of the lyrics are really meaningful man. haha. these are some that i really like:

1）再一次拥有：没有你的夜特别的漆黑，子能闭上双眼去感觉，没有我的夜三谁在你身边，代替了那个从前。

2） 触电：我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花，反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它，太容易的爱情故事就不耐人回味了。

3）多不懂得：我多不懂得，多不舍得，谁说割爱才跟深刻，彼此依赖，是爱不是复合，互相照顾就是感动的。

4）不会分离：把你抱在怀了，我们没有言语，感觉离别前两颗心在一起。我们抱在怀里， 我们不想言语，今天以后留下回忆，我们可以温习， 我爱你，不言语，这一刻天在哭泣。 （这首歌真的说出了我内心里的感想！）

天下无不散的宴席，离别是每个人这一身都会经历的。告别和离别的人眼里常常都会含着眼泪，心里不时也会有丝毫的不舍得。每当我想到离别的那一天将来临时，心里总有很多很多的不舍得和难过。总的来说，我还是放不下自己的家人，情朋好友，和我这身超深爱的女友！因为你们的疼爱与照顾，我才会感受到友谊的珍贵，家庭的重要性和被深爱的快乐。我再次向你们道谢，真是感谢老天让我遇见了你们，也让我体会良多。我想信像我这样幸福的人还真是不多巴。哈哈。

打着打着，眼泪像断了线的珍珠，一滴一滴的从脸颊滑了下来。脑海里不知不觉地浮现出以往的快乐日子。同大家一起的愉快日子仿佛就要成为历史了。天啊，每当我想到这时，心里常有天大的不甘心，但我还是得向命运低头。这就是为了追求梦想而付出的代价吧。你们一定要等我，再给我八个月好吗？等我回来吧！

我深爱的玮婷，我真的很感谢你这一路来的支持与疼爱。离开你是有多么的不舍得，多么的不想要。每当你问我可不可以不要离开你的时候，我的眼眶里总会含着泪，有时候我还会问问自己是不是太自私了。这样的痛苦你是不必去忍受的，你也不必天天都承受着相似子苦。我是不是对你太不公平了呢？你常说想念并不是单方面的，但如果我能把你所有的痛苦都转移到我身上，我一定义不容辞。

为何我会如此的疼爱你？我以一五一十的告诉你了，我对你说的那一番话并不是信口开河，随便说说而已，它们可是我打从心里想说的话。句句属实，绝无丝毫废话。让我们手牵手，一起向往我们的目标与未来前进好吗？我们各自都已在彼此的未来里了，以在双方的生活里留下了无法轻易消失的倒映。在爱尔兰，我对你的思念与想念恐怕会一日巨增。我相信在新加坡的你也一定不好受吧。当我们想起对方时，我们就看看皮夹里的照片吧！就如你说的，我们的每一张照片都看起来非常幸福! 实话实说，我真的以经觉得很幸福了，有你在身旁，黑暗中常常出现一道光芒，让我知道雨后有晴天。想对你说的话太多了！天阿，总的来说我爱你！！！！！！