Sad story

This entry is a little emotional, thus people who are feeling emotional please do not read this entry! I do not wish to know of any more deaths around me.

One of my pal's dad just departed from this world. It happened on 16 Sept in Malaysia. This news came as a great shock to me as never would i expect such things to happpen around me.

My friend, Ben Ong, seems to be taking the whole issue coolly. However, i believe that he has not gotten over it. In fact, i believe that it will take him quite some time to get over it as he is a rather emotional guy.

When he broke the news to me, i was both upset and angry.

Some may think why am i angry?!

I am angry on the basis that i believe that he should have at least informed me about his dad's death slightly earlier. He made me seem like a friend that he cannot turn too when he is facing a difficulty. OK, like what colin may say, ' U are just being a gal!'. But hey! I am definitely not the kind of friend that one can't trust or rely on man! zzzz

However, when i started to put some thoughts into this matter, i realised that i was not being a gal, but a BITCH/BASTARD! How can i even expect my pal to break the news to me when his dad passed away?! Its not something that should be celebrated. From then on, my anger vanished into thin air.

I am really really sorry for my friend. A once COMPLETE AND BEAUTIFUL family is now one that is no longer complete. Its like a beautiful jig saw puzzle lacking the LAST piece to make it complete! I have included his family into my prayers every night. I pray for them to see the light at the end of this dark and cold tunnel that they are currently in now. This is the most i can do, I hate it! I really hope that i can help him in some way or another. BUT HOW?! ><

Whats life?

In my opinion:
Life is something that is so fragile. It may end any time. I hate to say this but WHO KNOWS WHAT WILL HAPPEN TOMORROW? Anyone might die tomorrow, be it of a certain disease or an accident. ><><><><><><><>< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Argh, i hate death!

After this incident, i decided to further treasure everyone around me. Be it people i hate or love, i shall just shower them with MY LOVE if possible.
I spent my whole day at home today just to accompany my family members. This will go on forever! I am really afraid to lose them. Some day should i lose them, i have no regrets as i have spent quality time with them. Or at least i hope.

hai, i am so tired now. I shall end this entry here! night

a black tuesday?

Yoz, im finally back! Could not post a post yesterday as i was trapped in a place that shall not be name! I woke up at 0600 today so as to be able to set up all my stores and do the cookhouse duty. Initially, i thought 45 mins was more than enough time for me to get ready all my stuff. I was wrong.

A sad/busy morning:

As i was getting ready all the stores for the life run today, a group of Qm branch people came to draw stores from me. I was like hello~ are u all ok? Can't you all see i am rather busy?! Guess whats the best part, they wanted me to help them set up all their stores! When i heard that, i was so pissed! I immediately approached their superior to complain! (@!#!@%#%$#$!@#!@ : after a long time of complaining, the arrow was deflected! phew! thank god for that ^^)

Speaking of deflecting arrows, in the place that i am currently in, superiors are constantly shooting arrows. Some can be deflected easily while others are ARMOR piercing! From that place, i learn the technic of looking busy! hehe, even my clerks do that too! its part and parcel of our boring and mundane life in that place :p Fortunately, one of my direct superior is on leave, the amount of arrows shooting through the air has greatly reduced! phew ><

Oh, my whole gang in camp are going to buy the same water bottle! We are trying to create a new fashion statement with the bottles. Ok, i know some of you might find it lame (-.-), DUDE its the only way to spice up our life in the place that shall not be name! The name is being tagged! Should i say its name, i can never post any more post eva again. Eva again~ (ok, trying to be a little dramatic here honey~)

Looking back in time, i remember an event whereby my friends in the place that should not be name asked me a question.

Question: Why did that girl reject you?

Damn, it was their random moment again! so embarrassing man! argh~ In fact, i did not really tell my close friends what actually happened between both of us. Ha... I still do not have the courage man. Fuk it, i have decided to just blog it!

I had a crush on this cute lady for more than 2 years. In fact, im not sure if i have gotten over her yet. To tell her that i like her, i bought a crystal globe (those which can spin and produce soothing music kind) from precious moments and wrote her a card. She is the FIRST girl that i declare my feelings for man. Unfortunately, i could not attend a BBQ party, thus my friend, yu, have to pass her the gift. On that faithful night, i was on guard duty. I was very distracted, i think very distracted is an understatement! I was like waiting for the release of my 'O' and 'A' level results! so scary!!!!! ><><>< :( I was sad, very sad but amazingly i managed to hold back my tears. I sware i did not cry ( lyrics from a song of westlife : i sware i wont cry~ even as tears filled my eyes~ i sware i wont cry~))

She is really the girl i like. To be honest, till now my feelings for her still lingers in my heart. Though i want to move on, part of my heart tells me that there might still be a chance. Is there? i do not think so. She crosses my mind everytime im feeling alone. Her actions and behaviors are all deeply imbided into my mind. How she looks when she laugh, cry, worried... the list can go on and on. All thoes memories are THERE! RIGHT THERE IN MY MIND. unwilling to go no matter how hard i try. I can still remember the first question she asked me ' hey what's your name.' It was so unexpected, i actually fell for her at first sight! Im such as loser as what keith says. Period. Anyway, when i was in JC, i thought my best friend, Colin, aka la expensive bitch, has a crush on her. Because of that, i backed off. I was happy to see them together (they did not become bf/gf). To my surprise, colin is actually AJ! so hysterical! haha

Mango, benji and yoges says that its the girl's lost for rejecting me. Is it true? Nah, im just a normal neighbourhood friendly guy. Thats all, nothing special, nothing attractive. Argh being emotional now! damn... Im listening to SECRET by Jay Chow. The song is not really helping to make me happier man! ><

ok, feel a little better now. Will try to get over her. Promise!

lalalla, i shall end here! this post is so long! hehe >< chaoz

a normal saturday

As shown from the title of the blog, today is just an ordinary saturday. Ok, its not that ordinary as HALF of my saturday is brun by Army Open House.

Speaking of army open house, there are a few shocking discovery made.

1. Staff Lim wife is very very hot! She resembles a model! 8 out of ten (clap clap)
2. Saw my S4's wife. They look like such loving couple!
3. Heard that my superior's Wife is only 21!!!!! (omg! in my opinion, i do not think its possible! keeping my fingers crossed though)

I watch the move 1408 today! Though its not as good as what i have expected, i still find it slightly above average. The ending is lame though :(

oh man im so tired! cannot carry on for now~ shall bitch tml then! chaoz