Thursday, September 25, 2008

Its here!

Today is the 25th of September, its 2 days after my birthday, a day before i leave for Ireland.

How am i feeling now? The feelings are kind of jumbled up together. In fact, its so jumbled up that i don't even know how i am feeling at this point in time. It makes me feel like i am a little schizophrenic. haha, anyway, i shall do a massive blog ^^.

September 23:

It was my birthday! haha, i spent it with my spos. We went shopping and had dinner at the ginger park (if i remember correctly). haha, it was some fine dining restaurant. However, both spos and i were not as glam as we were suppose to be. haha, who cares, as long as you enjoy each other company nothing really matters right? haha, not like the people there will remember we two retards with absolute zero table manners. hmmm, thanks for wasting such a large amount of money ya. The food is really good, why not we return there for our belated one year celebration? It should be fun! haha.

Anyway, i wanna thank wee chin and ken for the gift that they gave me! haha, its really nice man. all the pictures that we took, all the stupid yet interesting comments that were written. I really appreciate it man. haha, too lost for words when you guys passed me the book, so at that time i could not say thank you. haha, THANKS THANKS THANKS! Eh, ken, i did not know u can be so artistic man. You have rather good blowing skills i suppose. ghee, it sounds damn wrong man! haha.

Have been listening to many songs recently. some of the lyrics are really meaningful man. haha. these are some that i really like:

1)再一次拥有:没有你的夜特别的漆黑,子能闭上双眼去感觉,没有我的夜三谁在你身边,代替了那个从前。

2) 触电:我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花,反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它,太容易的爱情故事就不耐人回味了。

3)多不懂得:我多不懂得,多不舍得,谁说割爱才跟深刻,彼此依赖,是爱不是复合,互相照顾就是感动的。

4)不会分离:把你抱在怀了,我们没有言语,感觉离别前两颗心在一起。我们抱在怀里, 我们不想言语今天以后留下回忆,我们可以温习, 我爱你,不言语,这一刻天在哭泣。 (这首歌真的说出了我内心里的感想!)

天下无不散的宴席,离别是每个人这一身都会经历的。告别和离别的人眼里常常都会含着眼泪,心里不时也会有丝毫的不舍得。每当我想到离别的那一天将来临时,心里总有很多很多的不舍得和难过。总的来说,我还是放不下自己的家人,情朋好友,和我这身超深爱的女友!因为你们的疼爱与照顾,我才会感受到友谊的珍贵,家庭的重要性和被深爱的快乐。我再次向你们道谢,真是感谢老天让我遇见了你们,也让我体会良多。我想信像我这样幸福的人还真是不多巴。哈哈。

打着打着,眼泪像断了线的珍珠,一滴一滴的从脸颊滑了下来。脑海里不知不觉地浮现出以往的快乐日子。同大家一起的愉快日子仿佛就要成为历史了。天啊,每当我想到这时,心里常有天大的不甘心,但我还是得向命运低头。这就是为了追求梦想而付出的代价吧。你们一定要等我,再给我八个月好吗?等我回来吧!

我深爱的玮婷,我真的很感谢你这一路来的支持与疼爱。离开你是有多么的不舍得,多么的不想要。每当你问我可不可以不要离开你的时候,我的眼眶里总会含着泪,有时候我还会问问自己是不是太自私了。这样的痛苦你是不必去忍受的,你也不必天天都承受着相似子苦。我是不是对你太不公平了呢?你常说想念并不是单方面的,但如果我能把你所有的痛苦都转移到我身上,我一定义不容辞。

为何我会如此的疼爱你?我以一五一十的告诉你了,我对你说的那一番话并不是信口开河,随便说说而已,它们可是我打从心里想说的话。句句属实,绝无丝毫废话。让我们手牵手,一起向往我们的目标与未来前进好吗?我们各自都已在彼此的未来里了,以在双方的生活里留下了无法轻易消失的倒映。在爱尔兰,我对你的思念与想念恐怕会一日巨增。我相信在新加坡的你也一定不好受吧。当我们想起对方时,我们就看看皮夹里的照片吧!就如你说的,我们的每一张照片都看起来非常幸福! 实话实说,我真的以经觉得很幸福了,有你在身旁,黑暗中常常出现一道光芒,让我知道雨后有晴天。想对你说的话太多了!天阿,总的来说我爱你!!!!!!

Friday, September 19, 2008

yet another friday

I believe that i have many post with this title : Friday. haha, so this time i shall be creative and think out of the small small box. yay, this is the title of the post, in short its about this particular friday. Ghee, are you guys feeling lost? haha, no worries as you are not alone. i have no idea what i am blogging too man. ><

anyway, whats going on in my mind now. i can really express what i am feeling. the thoughts are so bundled up, so inter-related that it all seems confusing to me. haha, basically i think i need to sleep. but as usual. i shall do some thinking before i sleep.

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After listening to the song 原谅我 over and over again, i cant help but wonder if what the fella in the song did was the right thing. For those who do not know what is the song about, its about a guy giving up his love one as he thinks that she deserves someone better. I know that this phrase 'you deserve someone better' is a cliche during break ups. However, in the case whereby it is really how the fella who initiated a break up feels, isn't it something very 伟大. Something that is way beyond what a normal person will do?

To leave the ones you really love is not as easy as ABC i suppose. This is because there are many many memories that will never ever be forgotten. This leads to a burning question in my head, how does a person get over his/her failed relationship? it is through a long period of time and stuff. 时间可一冲淡一切. haha, this is what cherry ( a friend of mine in Tasmania ) told me. BUT how much time is need to chong dan everything? 5 years? 10 years? haha, when i have the answer i shall blog it again. haha. anyway, my stand is that the fella who gives up on his love one because he/she deserves someone bettter seems wei da yet stupid -_- yea, 50/50 i suppose.

anyway, shall blog about happy stuff and not those nonsense above. just ended lan gaming with colin, ken, ger and chin chin. hah, this will be our last dota game together for the year 2008 man. damn, will surely miss dota-ing with you guys every friday when i am in ireland. sianz, can i be granted more time in singapore? haha. lame shit i know. oh well, i shall have to look forward to the first dota outing with you guys in year 2009 ba! haha. we must still rock socks ya! haha. anyway, we won all the games today, THREE CHEERS! spos, i am zai de k~ haha, or should i say my team mates rocks~ haha.

This afternoon, i had sushi buffet with my dear shit. haha, though we did not eat much, we did order a number of 4.90 dishes. haha, so i suppose it is worth the money ba! haha. anyway, smelly crayfish, thanks for the treat ya! haha. oh ya, spos was so luckly today. she wanted this banana keychain and she got it! ghee, im amazed man, who knows, i may be my spos lucky star! haha.

sadly. i really dont feel like leaving singapore. the thought of it sucks. 8 months and 2 weeks is really long man!

spos, i am really sorry that i have to let you go through such nonsense man. Its a pity that you cant have your bf to be always around you when you need him to be. haha, some times i find myself really selfish to want a long distance relationship. but as for now, im thankful to have you by my side. lets hope that we can achieve our common goal ya Love ya lots.

As for the purchasing of the stuff, wanna do it tomorrow when we meet? :p seems rather challenging man.

zzz, i shall stop here. mum is lying on my bed! she is trying to nag me to sleep. gheee, i hate to admit it but it sure is working! haha, choaz !

Saturday, September 13, 2008

21st~ old le -_-

Ok. im not really 21 yet, haha, i will be 21 in nine more days! haha, faster then co co, yu, ken and chin chin! wahaha, ok i am old -_-. the truth hurts man! damn! haha.

anyway, thanks for everything yesterday ya! haha, though i am suffering from the repercussion of having too much left over ( i had to eat the noodles and fried rice for breakfast man!). not forgetting the kawaii KEY shape cake, haha. i am so dead, period.

oh man, i saw a hardworking fish yesterday man. haha, she was the satay woman~ eh, correction, ah ma aka aunty i mean. haha, most of the satay that you guys consumed is being BBQ-ed by fishball man. haha, wo jia de fishball shi zai de. haha.

ps: those oilly satays are the result of my cousin bbq-ing, haha, it has got nothing to do with yu. :p though she is not a good mentor! haha.

Thanks for the gift man. haha, though the sweater is a little tight fitting, i shall use it as a reminder that i cant grow fatter! its damn nice though. you guys have good taste like me! hehe, just kidding~ thanks wee chin and ben for the belt ya! haha, damn nice! haha. kiss kiss? haha.

zzz, stupid pei yu commented that i am chi dai in one of the pictures! so mean~ u broke my fragile and innocent heart~ its ok, wee chin will still be with me at the age of 45 regardless of me being chi dai or not! (i think ><) haha.

oh ya, rq wants yu to ship/fly /throw/roll.. wateva works, ger to her. moreover, she says that she misses us! oh man, so sweet of her man. you guys have to catch up with her when she is back from Australia ya! haha.

there is still this burning question in my head! IS BEN ONG GAY! oh man, he seems like he is aj, but yet he has some straight aura. haha, ok lah he is BI~ k k k, mystery solved~ case close! dont wanna think so much about it le.

hmm, while i was drinking, i suddenly thought if yuan. haha, yea man i know its kinda random. its really fun drinking with him! haha, too bad no chance le. hey, ger seems ok with the idea of plying truth or dare~ haha, so lets play truth or dare with him man! haha, colin u can ask all the burning questions too! haha, sounds damn fun! haha.

thanks shit for the gift u 'made' ya. haha, its really beautiful man. haha, with that i can hear your voice anytime i want when i am in Ireland! haha. brilliant plan right? haha. thanks for making me feel so fortunate to have ya around ^^ though you may not be a really good card game partner~ haha. thanks once again for everything my dear!

Monday, September 8, 2008

financial concept ><

sadly, when i was out shopping yesterday, i lost my financial concept. yesterday, i met up with jun wei to get Joseph belated birthday gift. ok, to be honest, i did not want to get any gift for Joseph. haha, yesterday's aim of the meeting is to catch up with jun wei! haha.

as we were shopping around in parkway parade, i saw this beautiful orange colour polo shirt! haha, in fact, i fell in love with the shirt a few days ago. its really quite nice man, or at least it is to me! haha, maybe i should take a picture of me in the shirt and post it on my blog like some friend of ours in Australia? haha. nah, better give that idea a miss as i sense impending danger and criticism from our dear co co! haha. fear not, it does not resemble any snake skin ^^. its just a normal shirt, haha. oh ya, it cost $99. sianz, now i regret getting the shirt man. This is because with 99 dollars, i can buy a bag lah! zzzz, loser-ish me -_-.

oh well, screw the financial concept thing. some times we need to do some retail therapy right? without spending how can there be a rise in GDP. sometimes its ok to spend a little money, isn't it? ok ok ok, enough of deluding myself. haha, i was just playing a role in consumerism. haha, thick thick smoke man! haha.

had a long long long chat with jun wei yesterday. he was talking about his ex and stuff. though it get boring at times, i think i have already gotten use to it like many many years ago. haha. he was saying how good/bad his past relationships were. there are lessons to be learnt from every failed relationship i suppose. haha.

wee chin! my sis stole the book ' a child called it' from me! roar, she brought it to work today! damn man, i was suppose to finish it by today de. oh well, shall nag at my sister when she comes home from work today! haha. eh, with much consideration, i shall drop the idea of nagging her as the table might turn man. haha, it may end up being she nagging me! haha, that's lady's power i suppose.

was chatting with my brother over msn a few hours ago. we touched on the issue regarding the possibility of striking a balance in a relationship. The balance meaning both parties give and take equally. After a long debate, i realise that it is indeed difficult to strike a balance in a relationship. its is near impossible to give as much as you receive, thats a sure thing man. We ended the debate agreeing on the point that both parties should appreciate one another and not take anyone for granted (this is my spos idea which makes lots of sense). so ya, im just blogging this down to ensure that i will not take my shit for granted. ^^

oh well i should end here le, going to watch shao nian yang jia jiang! haha, apparently the qi lang is jolin's boyfriend! haha, faint. ok lah, they look good together! however, that is only my humble opinion as there are many out there that disagree! haha.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

7th september

With a blink of an my three months here in singapore is coming to an end. it would imply that my new chapter in life would unfold! haha. for some weird reasons, i am not at all excited. The fact that i may be the only singaporean in rcis is also such a major turn off. When i am back in Tasmania, i had 2 singporean friends man. what in the world is going on ><. oh well, shall just heed ken's advice, that is to make friends there! ^^ that should not be that difficult, i hope ><.

Summery of this week:

1) Zoo~ : whee, i went to the zoo this week! had lots of fun with spos, my brother and his girlfriend. haha, this trip is so much more memorable than the one i went with keith, benji and mango. haha, i really love the sea cow! omg, it looks damn huge man! haha, reminds me of shabu whale -_-. vision yu swimming~ omg~ kawaii~ haha, ok i am so dead. Anyway, i went to the zoo with high hopes of seeing anaconda! haha, sadly there was none! i should feedback to the zoo man. anacondas are such lovely pets~ ok im lying~. hmm, im lazy to upload the pics that are taken.

2) Food fair: there was a food fair at suntec during the weekend! haha, called colin to go but he does not feel like going. oh well~ had lots of food man! haha, i spammed durians and many many many oily food! eh sorry yu, i am still using the NS phone, therefore i did not take any pictures. hmm, there should be more coming up i suppose. haha, must go next time ya! its not that crowded.

oh ya, i pang seh ger on friday. ok, it was suppose to be a mass pang seh de man. in the end i was the one that kanna fire by ger! faint man. he sounded really angry when i called him. oh man, lesson learn. no more trying to organise outing le. haha, organise only when it is 100% certain that everyone is in favor of the decision made. anyway, had a chat with ger during supper, sort of clear the air, with the help of colin and ken~ haha, thanks guys! heng got you guys to help back up that white lie! haha, ok maybe its not a white lie.

zzzz, some random car just farted a few seconds ago! i really hate such cars man. how can they fart so loudly!!! roar, so inconsiderate! those loud noise always make me jump >< er xin! haha, my maid thought that there was an accident due to the loud fart! haha, so funny. she was like ' is there an accident hon wei?' see what those fart can do to peoples' mind?! get a life man those people!!!

anyway, its 19 more days and i will be out of singapore. this year, i do not look forward to my birthday. usually i would be so happy when my birthday is arriving, but for this year, its slightly more special. it is labelled with this ' 3 more days to ireland'! faint~ argh, i dont wanna go!!

spos, its sad that time is never in our favor. time seems to past at the speed of light when i am with you. does it mean that it will also be like this when we are not with one another? anyway, sorry that i made ya cry today. haha, though it was not at all intentional, i really hate to see ya cry man. when i saw you crying, tears cascaded down my cheeks too. no good~ we both should not cry that much le k? haha. yupz, like what you said, we will both get through this shit together ya. love ya lots ^^

Monday, September 1, 2008

start of a new week

Wheee, today is monday. it also implies that it is the start of a new week. sadly, it also means that i am one week closer to going to ireland! zzz, i am so not at all excited.

tomorrow phil will be coming over to my place as i purchased some insurance policy. i was not really in favour of it man. however, being such a logical and zai financial consultant, he managed to persuade my mother and i to get a policy from him. anyway, its only for me as my mum says we already have too many policies. i am amazed that i am quite highly insured man. both mum and had has different types of insurance policies for us. looks like i may not be that broke after i age. thanks to my parents!!! hehe.

hmm, had steam boat with my family today. haha, my bro was unable to join us though. i lied to m mum that weitin likes pig's intestine! haha, initially my mum was so amazed. she said in chinese ' i thought u do not like pork meat due to its smell, why will you like pig's intestine? it has a stronger smell isn't it?' i could not stop laughing man. however, i had to face the warth of spos as she started to pinch me and even bite me! haha, she must be too hungry! i shall post the picture of my injured hand.



amazingly, her teeth left a happy face mark on my hand! haha. look closely, i cant believe it can turn out like THAT man! haha. once again she never fails to amaze me. haha. though that bite hurts like hell, its worth it as the scare brings smile to my face! haha. love you shit! haha.

haha, since my dear spos got me a patrick boxers and a t-shit which has 'im a slow learner on it' i shall forgive her! haha. thanks for the gift dear! haha, will wear it for you soon! ^^

oh ya, i want ot thank wee chin and ken for listening to my nagging yesterday! haha. i have already did what you guys told me to do! hehe, apparently her mum also told her that! haha, i suppose great mind thinks alike? haha. thanks once again! haha

hmm, tomorrow will be a busy day man. haha, have to send the car for survicing, go to a dentist and collect my new passport! damn man, busy busy busy day! haha.

ok i shall start with my face treatment le! haha, hope my face gets well soon! haha. chaoz.

ps: happy bday yuan, may all your dream and wishes come true! though i know u will never see this and would never wan to hear this from me. night everyone