thinking

i have been thinking a lot recently. did i make a wrong choice? was the decision a wise one? would it do more harm than good? Many many questions start appearing in my mind! was it due to a moment of temptation that i gave in? the thing that has been bothering me is the fact that i have gotten really close with some of the malaysians.

Initially, i kept telling myself that i should not even bother making friends with them since they would be gone after 2 and a half years. why would i want to put myself into a nasty situation where i have to undergo 分离 again? sounds logical? well at least it does to me. however, i let my guard down and started interacting with them.... resulting in me being rather close to them now.

just came back from a steamboat dinner with them. it really was fun, had many bimbotic moments and so on. i realised that i have become so close to them. it seems like they have integrated into my life here in ireland. like... a mini family? especially alvin and jg. jg and i would always consult one another when we are in doubts, he would always give me wake up call to make sure i would be awake. all those minute events now seems so normal yet precious. something which i really hope to hold on to for as long as i can. sadly, i know i cant. it would all end in just 1.5 years time. reality hits hard again...

maybe i should just not think so much about what would happen in the near future? many say that we should just deal with a matter when it happens. i really hope to adopt such mindset but i really cant. i hate it when things get beyond my control, when they are not happening according to what i plan. basically, i hate changes. period.

oh well, i did IMPULSIVE shopping today again. wo de tian, i really regretted it man. haha, i realised shopping is socially contagious! LOL, i resulted in joey buying a gucci belt. LOL, i was so amazed that he wanted to get a belt from gucci too. haha, its damn dangerous to shop with another fella who does not have self control. this is my lesson learnt today. haha, i need to have more self control and only buy things that i really require ba i suppose. hmmm, like the sales lady says, its a from of investment! lol, such a lame excuse isnt it? haha.

whee, got to see mingyuan's picture on facebook! looks like he is doing well! haha, no negative implication, well at least they are not seen from the pictures! haha. however, there is one thing about him that will never change, that is the mindset that we both share : should one drink, one must definitely get drunk. LOLz, i know its kinda lame this mindset is really one that makes drinking with him so fun! haha. hmm, kind of disappointed that our friendship had to come to an end, i suppose its fated ba. 人的一生就像烟火，总在最灿烂的时候熄灭！thanks for all the memories that u gave me. will always keep u in my prayers too!

woohooo, yu got me hooked to the song 妥协！ haha, its really damn nice man. haha, i think this is one of jolin best song ba. haha. its probably due to the meaningful lyrics ba. its kind of sad but it really happens i suppose. its like so got gan dong du~ whaha. jolin rocks! but hebe rocks more. LOL. i go more... natural.. more ORGANIC!



hmm, there are times when i think that i behave like the guy in the mv. sorry if there are times when i make u feel that im taking your unconditional love for granted ya. especially the one month before my exam started. thanks for always being so caring and understanding! really really really appreciate it. thanks for all that you have given me. love ya lots!