Sunday, February 15, 2009

Really An Emo Week

Lol, this post seems to be in response to yu's post not long ago. Ha, i would say that this week is a rather special week for us all. okay, maybe not us as a whole, majority? come to think of it. it might actually be minority! >< oh well, anyway, this issue sets me thinking... really thinking.

Is there really a need to be so fan nao over that issue? is it really a small issue? did we unconsciously blew up the matter from something which is so simple (yu's point of view) to something that is so multi factorial? is there really a simple solution to it? is there really that much implication? so many many questions but with no answers! maybe thats the source of all the fan naos! haha.

In my opinion, i think rq requires a second chance from us ba. there are many people out there who wants to be offered a second chance to make things up but are not being granted the chance. maybe we should open up our heart to rq again, for the sake of ger? Its really easy for us to constantly reject going out with ger and all, but did we ever take into consideration how he feels deep down inside? its only till yu told me about ger that made me realised this - in the process of respecting him, we have hurt him. the severity? i have no idea.

with that, i have decided that i would still go out with rq and ger just like what yu did that friday. In fact, im really thankful that yu told me what ger said and how he felt. reality hit me really hard, i hurt a friend, one who really treasures and love us. so lets try to let all this nonsense come to an end ba. he does not need to be hurt any further le, and i suppose rq will change for the sake of ger.

maybe like what weitin says, a person wont change that suddenly. its definitely true, but i believe that she would make an effort to change ba, at least in front of us.

Thinking back, why do we dislike rq that much? is it really because of something we did or its just conformity ( to succumb to an imaginary or actual social pressure)? Is it just observational learning that resulted in us disliking her to such an extent? there are many human behavior study that can explain why we are doing this to rq and all, which one would you guys choose? in summary :

1) I know EXACTLY why i dislike her.
2) I am not really sure why i dislike her, i just find her irritating.

many of us fall into the second category ba, with the exception of colin i suppose. Chin, you use to be able to gum so well with her in the past, what happened? I use to be able to sms her the whole day and chat with her for hours, what happened? As i look back, i got more and more confuse and upset with myself. It seems that what i did in the past and how i am feeling now is really contradicting. Was i putting on a mask (reaction behavior) when i was close with her last time? that i could certainly answer, NO i did not.

Oh well, saying so much makes me feel so much better, i really need a channel to relate how im feeling now man. To be honest, i feel really sorry for ger. Its really sad that both colin and ger would not be able to join us. oh well, lets just make the best out of the trip ya?

Some happier stuff! yu bought a new hamster! haha, its like the hamster is wearing a white mask lah! damn kawaii! haha, yu said that the hamster is cuter than kawaii cute cute! haha, wc must be really upset now man. haha, oh well, chin u are always cute in my eyes k? haha. ok i am so gonna faint.

Looks like most of us had lonely vday. haha, though i went out with my friends for dinner, they are not the people i really wanna spend my vday with man. haha, oh well, shall look forward to the next vday ya! haha, by den hopefully most of you all will find your soul mate le! wheee, no more lan tao hua for ken! haha. More fishes for Chin chin and more sunny(in chinese) men for yu ba! haha. JIA YOU!

oh ya, stupid colin told me such a funny joke! haha, i think thats something that i am going to remember for life le man. haha, dun scold that fella as i am guilty of that too! haha!

chin, ken and wt, we need to thank yu for helping us find hotels and all! hehe, she is putting in a lot of effort and she keeps huanging lah! faints. haha, but i know all will work out well! haha. jia you fishball and thanks!!!!!

ftt! haha, miss ya lots today. i suppose its the emotional build up due to ger's issue ba. haha, but its ok since it made me miss you more right? haha. oh well, dont be so stress yea? chill-lex man. haha, all will be fine, no worries! haha, most impt, always adhere to yu's teaching, that is NOT TO HUANG (though she does not really practice it herself :p). love ya lots!

ps: ken when is your car coming! i cant wait to sit in it man! and rem drive carefully and jia you with your studying!!!!!!

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