hmmm, got a little emotional after i read jasmine's blog. Ha, her blog was about family. It makes me wonder if i am able to have a more complete family...
hmmm, anyway, i am glad that my parents are still with me. I have outstanding sister and brothers. Staying away from home made me realise that i miss them very much. Miss their nagging, miss arguing with them and stuff. Thank god i will be going back in 10 days time. ^^ However, i started to think if i am able to survive being away from my close friends and family for 1 year! its 365 days for the love of god! ha, i know my dad would be able to let me return to singapore twice a year, but i do not wish to add on anymore burden to him. I hope to be more independent and stuff. Ha, maybe its like what RQ said about me, i have got no finiancial concept. Damn, i shall prove her wrong! haha.
Yest was fathers' day, this is the first time in my life i actually wished my dad happy fathers' day. Though he tried not to register any emotions(thats what my younger brother told me), i knew that he was touched! ha, he wanted to web cam with me but i could not as i was in the learning hub. Wasted man~ haha, but anyway i will always remeber fathers' day as it somehow become more significant then before. Maybe i'm loving my dad more and more...
To be honest, i use to hate my father a lot. I hate him for being bias, unfair and not letting me do what i want. Ha, i remember when i was young, i wanted to learn playing piano so much! but he did not allow me to take up lessons as my he said i should not waste money because my bro is already learning. I was really upset when he forced me to take up speech and drama. When i look back, i realised that speech and dram wasnt such a bad thing afterall~ haha, i suppose this is a phase of growing up.
Oh ya, my dad told me i was nearly ran down by a car before. Faint! i cant recall the incident man, it seems i might have fainted! haha. What happen was i ran out of the house (maid did not close the main gate ><) after arguing with my dad. Apparently, i crossed the road without look out for cars!!! omg~ haha, and i was nearly knocked down by a car~ haha, i think the driver nearly fainted man~ haha, knocking down such a cute boy is a sin man! roar!
hmmm, anyway, i realised that my dad is actually a good father. I was not able to look at the whole picture when i was young, stupid me. Hmmm, how i wish i can have the courage to tell him that i am sorry for all the nasty stuff that i did when i was young. I could clearly remember this incident whereby i said 'you deserve it for falling ill cos u are evil'. Hmmm, those words must have pierced his heart deeply... i can feel the pain he felt when i am recalling this incident.
Anyway, thank you dad for everything you had done for me!!! really appreciate it! being your son is the best thing that has ever happen to me! Sorry for all the nasty things that i did or said! i want to take everything back!!! anyway, love ya daddy!!!! Get well soon so we can go travelling as a family once again!!! (hmmm, i shall say that to him when i am back in sg~ ^^)
oh ya, my maid's dad passed away... feel so sad for her... hope she can cope with the emotional trauma that she is going through right now... may god bless her and her family....
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