does it all ends here?

Sadly, this is not a happy post. Its one that consists of mixed emotions.

Cause: I have decided to take up a scholarship that is offered to me by the Uni Of Tesmania. After discussing with my parents, relatives and friends, i have made up my mind.I will adopt the offer. That would mean that i will have to be in aust by feb 18 for the uni's orientation.

Im really really shocked when my uncle broke this news to me. I DID NOT apply for any scholarship as my result for A lvl was just average. Its not at all outstanding. I'm glad that this offer was given to me. However, there are many factors that really discourage me from adopting the offer.

Main Reason:

MY FRIENDS

1) Colin: i swear he is the guy/lady that really really know me. It's an obvious thing as we have been best friends since secondary 1. We crap, study, play and even got into the same college and SAME class! LOL, what are the odds man. Sadly, we cant get the same course in uni ><. LIfe would be different without him. He would be there when i need help and we know many many secrets of one another! haha. How i wish we can always be so close to one another. Will distance weaken our friendship?! i certainly hope not.

2)Pei yu: since i only know this pig in JC, she is really an important part of my life. She never fails to be there when i need her. In thailand, she was the one that was there for me. It was her that i manage to get over the darkest period of my life. Seriously, im not kidding. Moreover, im really glad that she is my zhi high partner. Its just so fun when she is around. She certainly brings life and laughter to my boring life. YU~ u must jia you wor. If u dun get 4.8 this time then NO GOOD~ :p

3)ken: A trustworthy friend! always there when i need his help. He never complain about anything! Though he may be very lame some times, its his positive attitude that really motivates me to go on. Really enjoy spending my time with him, though many bimbo tic stuff happens to both of us. For example: we were scolded by this GAL for playing psp in the cinema! how embarrassing! ha.

4)Ger: full of nonsense. Really nice guy. For some weird reason, he really like cats! ewww! no good~ i still remember he brings cat food to school~ WTH! Gross! haha. He is my eating buddy wor! U ON I ON DE( a phrase we always use when we are in TAIWAN!) haha, beautiful memories.....

5)Rui Qing: Basically DSR.com.sg/ger! haha. Really stupid lady. Nothing to say! haha. Really enjoy bullying her man. She just doesn't get angry no matter how i insult her( she is da lady~ man) haha. Hope to see her in aust in august!

6)ZI yang: ha, my yang yang is just so childish! Seriously, he looks like a 14 year old man. Thank god he does not act like one though. Maybe because he is the only son, he has difficulty expressing himself. He likes to keep things to himself but after EX crescendo, i got to know him much much better. I know when he is upset, when he is lying. Really enjoy spending time with him. Dun really like playing lan with him cos he always push the blame on me! haha. He does not mean it though. Sadly, i broke my promise. I thought i would pei him till mar 8 and even meet up with him during night's off after i ord. Its all not possible now! im so sorry.....

7)phil: he is my armskote man! a really matured man! haha. He has thought me many stuff. He shares many personal experiences with me. He is like a DAD to me in camp! basically he rox!

8) Ming Yuan: ok... ha, basically he is weird but cute. Gave me many many nicknames: dog, lamer, clown, lame duck(when i went for in-grown toe nail op), noob and even porn star! Had many happy memories with him. Some sad though. He always put on a brave front but i know he is actually a very emotional guy. I know that there are times whereby he wants to talk to me but he just does not want to make the first move! ha. K, i admit, sometimes when he makes the first move i would just ignore him! hehe. However, i will really treasure my time with him. No more stupid fight, no more arguments no more cold war! its all coming to an end and i really hate it......

9) Wee Chin: he is a cock! haha. full of crap ideas but we sure have chemistry though. Both got rejected by the gal we like, got driving licence in the same year and most importantly we both like the same food! for some weird reason, both of us are damn similar. Like cockles, like gals with long hair and so on. We really need to go for a dna test man! there might be a chance that we are actually brothers man!!!! haha. We promise to get girlfriend/wife that will be able to get along together. They do their shopping, we do our eating! wahahaha

basically, i hate the idea of leaving all my friends! they are a really important part of my life. It would be really scary when they are no long a part of my life! i really hope our friendship will last and that we will not drift apart from one another. Fair enough, one should adapt to the change in environment. I will definitely make new frrends but i am CERTAIN that i cant find friends that are as marvellous as they are! Finally, i hope that my decision to take up the scholarship would be a right one too.....