confidential

oh dear, for some obvious reason, i decided to stop blogging for a period of time :p Ok, its time to start again! weeee

I shall blog about two issues. one is rather sensitive while the other is pure irritating.

The irritating issue:

Which uni should i practice medcine?!

The ideal situation would definitely be practicing medcine in Singapore as my best pal is already there! However, this would not happen as my grades simply sucks ><.

I tried applying to IMU(international meducal university). Initially, i was very certain that i would accept the offer should i be accepted. However, after having a chat with my uncle who is the boss of CMS, he strongly advised me against going to IMU. He doubts the integrity of the university. Im now confused!

My opinion:

As a matter of fact, the thought of studying in Malaysia is a little turn off(no insults, just my humble opinion). firstly, i am not very comfortable with the population. Its called MALAYsia for a reason. Secondly, i really do not like the environment there. Lastly, my dad also encouraged me to try universities in countries like UK, Aust(rejected by all -.-"), NZ and so on. Basically, he does not really encourage me to study in malaysia......... argh!
Moreover, my uncle is not helping. He helped me send application to UK and Ireland universities without my knowledge! Yes, im touched by his actions. However, shouldn't he consult me instade of just consulting my dad?! ok, i may be just being a lady like wat colin always say! haha

The thought of studying overseas is really thrilling. However, there is an enormous force that is discouraging me. They are my friends here in Singapore. I am really thankful that i have a bunch of buddies in Singapore. I believe i will not be able to find anyone like them when im overseas. they are the people that i can turn too and really be there for me when i need them! How can i live without them?! oh my god! I may soumd childish, but they are really an important part of my life. I can visualise them sending me off. I would definitely tear! I sware! Argh!!! im being really emotional here, sorry guys ><

Lets change the subject. My closer friends would know who i am talking about! hehe, you are right, its the fella, i shall call that fella Yuan.

I really really enjoy spending my time with yuan. Yes, i really hope to try to get away from yuan, however, its easier said than done.
I would be delighted when yuan msgs me. I want to be with yuan when he is in trouble! Sadly, i may not really be the one yuan wants to be by yuan side! ok, i can imagine py and colin turning off le! haha! we seldom have time to chat so i might as well just blog it ya! haha

Its really really difficult to avoid yuan. I tried not msg-ing yuan this weekend, however, yuan msg me -.-" how am i suppose to avoid yuan like that leh?! confused......

I just listen to a song that really really reflects how i feel now. The title is 我不想忘记你 by 郭静.

我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

一个人不懂什么是拥有
两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你
笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你
再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你
苦也没关系
用祝福和感激
勇敢失去你爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

haha, thats all for now. going to temple soon le!